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2005-12-04T13:58:00.000+08:00

2005-10-15T23:24:00.000+08:00

A TRIBUTE TO CEDAR.

Four years ago, i still vividly remember how i first set foot into the secondary school of my choice - by the outlook of the very prominent and distinctive school uniform. the blue blouse and grey skirt uniform which caught my attention greatly attracted me to it. Then, still a young kid and newbie in secondary school life, i was totally unfamiliar to this strange new world. Adolescents of my age are the ones at the stage where they seek adventure in everything they do. it is the period of time when we experiment with new stuffs and encounter many problems which creates the many obstacles in our life. this is where we would begin a new but complicated chapter of our life, where we meet and forge new friendship bonds, apart from those in primary school.

One day, everyone will or would already have experienced receiving education at a secondary school.With a disappointing and not so good PSLE aggregate of only 242 points, i entered into the school of my dreams.First day of school, proved to be much more than just a first day of school. From just four core subjects in primary school, the number was increased to a whopping 9 core subjects. Theload of the new textbooks was not the most disturbing problem, my curiosity was. immediately when i got home that day, i began flipping through all the textbooks, though i may not have understood everything in there then, but now. certainly or not. my teachers during these fouryears have done all they could to spread and share their knowledge with us.

Through these four years, all three hundred and sixty plus of us would have experienced and gone through thick and thin together. In secondary one, most of us secondary ones then performed and took part in the Singapore Youth Festival as part of the flashcard display contingent. In secondary two, some six hundred of us cedarians ranging from secondary one to secondary three students danced in the National Day Parade 2003. Despite the SARS outbreak in 2003, we managed to put up an impressive performance together. and together we united as one.End of the year was a heart wrenching process as all of us might be separated into different classes into different combinations. tough it has been but all of us would have to separate one day or another.at this point of time, my secondary one and two classes taught all of us unity. we were the only class who achieved the BEST JOGGING CLASS AWARD for consecutively 8 times? nobody else ever received the award except our class in our level.the best of all was the time when we won the BEST CLASS AWARD.deserving we are, i must say. we fought hard and worked hard together just for that very moment. the very proudmoment whereby our efforts paid off. there after, i was streamed and posted into 3c 2004. the combination ofpure physics pure chemistry pure geography and history elective. yet another stage of secondary school life.after two years of bonding with my secondary one and two classmates, reality cruelly separated me and them again,to place me into a place where i meet new friends again. a new environment. secondary three seemed to be a year to test our maturity. the demise of a beloved level mate. indeed it was a pity yet nobody will ever understand.of course, in secondary three, we also went through outdoor adventure camp, where further bonding between meand my classmates was done. through all the pain and hardships, we managed to survive through and become even tougher and stronger. where we no longer are weak and frail. where we grow up. still, there are manycliques and groups of divided friendship.ndp in secondary three, everything changed. we got to know eachand everyone better. now we have this thing in us. the 4c spirit will never die. never ever.

in these four years, i have also dedicated my service to girl guides. my cca for four years. this is the place,where i went through most hardships. the camps, the lessons learnt, the process of sisterhood is something unforgettable. i learnt about perseverance, and many life long lessons which will accompany me throughout my entire life. to learn how to be a leader, to lead and serve. to strive. is not an easy task. definitely. to need to be a role model to your juniors is absolutely tiring, and i am sorry to everyone whom i had disappointfor i was never able to be a role model for the juniors to look up to. conflicts and quarrels, in a way or another, changed our life and enabled us to grow up. to think maturely. as the saying goes, 'there are no permanent friends or enemies, but permanent interests'.

of course during these four years,i have gained and lost many friends. but truly speaking, i would have gainedmore friends than i ever deserved. it is because of these people, i became unappreciative of the people aroundme. losing friends became a common sight. yet till now, i still have not woken up from all these rubbish. i still sinked into friendship problems.but not once, do i regret. irritating i might be. disgusting i might be. serve me right when i lose my friends? it doesnt matter. im sorry to everybody who had landed into this state before.im sorry for being unappreciative. yet,i would like to thank all those who had stood by me, to listen to my woes,to share my joy with me. when i am angry you people will be there to calm me down, when i am happy you people will be there to smile and cheer with me, when i am sad you people will be there to lend a listening ear, patientlynot once complaining, when i get into trouble you people will be there to share my load, to save me and provide solutions, to be my advisor!

apart from all these, the most important people in this part of the life is none other than the teachers!thank you all of you for being so patient with us. for being able to tolerate all my nonsense. for not getting annoyed over my noisyness and irritatingness. for not complaining once. even when my results are bad, thank you for not givingup hope on me. thank you for being there for us. thank you for worrying for us more than we worry for ourselves.as we are the stupidest batch with the lowest entry t-score, of course we would want to strive hard to achive results that are up to standard to that of the band one school.

principal(miss susan leong)
vice principal(mrs tan)

secondary one.
english - miss tessa tan [ form teacher ]
higher chinese - mdm han ai ling
mathematics - mr chan kam poo
science - miss alisson lim
geography - mrs loh heng sin
history - miss ng bee sun
literature - mrs peh lai wah
art - miss jou wei kay
dnt - mrs noeline lee
home econs - mrs julia woo
pe - miss agnes leong
music - miss naomi chye

secondary two.
english - miss janet ting / mrs valerie ong
higher chinese - mdm koh poh leng
mathematics - mrs ng swee seng
science - mrs tan bee chok [ form teacher ]
geography - mrs tan tsui fang
history - mr gabriel tan
literature - mrs peh lai wah
art - miss jou wei kay
dnt - mrs noeline lee
home econs - mrs julia woo
pe - mr chan chee kiang
music - miss naomi chye

secondary three.
english - miss janice tan
higher chinese - mdm han ai ling
additional mathematics - miss wong mei ching
elementary mathematics - mr eric tan [ third form teacher ] / mr chiang
physics - miss jacklyn thang / mr yau ming chin
chemistry - mr michael chia
geography - miss sheela [ first form teacher], miss mahendran, mrs loh
social studies/history elective - mr gabriel tan
pe - miss agnes leong

second form teacher: mrs elaine wong (doesn't teach us anything)
additional teacher: zheng lao shi (in replacement of mdm han when she went on course)

secondary four.
english - miss lizah
higher chinese - mdm han ai ling
additional mathematics - MDM LUM SUET THIM! ((: rocks x)) cute! hot sexah!
elementary mathematics - mrs serene ng
physics - miss jacklyn thang / mr yau ming chin
chemistry - miss chng mui poh
geography - mrs ong en chee / mrs vivien koh
social studies/history elective - miss ng bee sun
pe - miss agnes leong / mr chan / miss chua

additional teachers who helped me in a way or another, accompanying me on the road to success.

mr tay
MISS NAIR
mr chan (luohan)
mr chan (PE)
mr darren chin
mdm faridah
mr hou liang
mr lau
miss lee mei kay
miss joan chia
mrs lim kim choo

special thanks to all staff of cedar.

with the good leadership of our principal, vice-principals, teachers, student leaders and students, let's soar to greaterheights.

four years later, i have graduated from cedar on the 15th october 2005 as a woman of substance and character. here, i would like to thank all who had helped me and guided me along this four long years. TOday, i have become an ex cedarian. With the theme EXPLOSIVE tears naturally fell from our eyes uncontrollably as we dedicateda special item to all parents and teachers present. we sang a song of appreciation and it is as follow:

AGAINST ALL ODDS
(specially editted by Mrs Lim Kim Choo)

How can you just let us walk away
Just let us leave without a trace
When we stand here taking every breath with you
You are the only ones who really knew us at all

How can we just walk away from you
When all you can do is watch us leave
'Cause we have shared the laughter and the pain and even shared the tears
You are the only ones who really knew us at all

So take a good look at us now, 'cause we have come this far
And there's so much here to remind us
Like the memory of this place
Oh, take a look at us now, 'cause we have come this far
And how we made it here was against all odds and that's what we had to face

You wish you could just make us turn around
Turn around and see us soar
There's so much we need to say to you, so many reasons why
You are the only ones who really knew us at all

So take a look at us now, 'cause we have come this far
And there's so much here to remind us
Like the memory of this place
Now take a look at us now, 'cause we have come this far
But to give our best is all we can do and that's what we've got to face
Take a good look at us now, 'cause we'll still be standing here
And how we made it here was against all odds
It's the chance we've had to take
Take a good look at us

and for the last time, we sang the school song. LOUD. CLEAR. PROUD. ended the day with loads of photo shots with eachand every one of my classmates. and most of the teachers that have taught me. indeed. all's well ends well.

THANK YOUeverybody for EVERYTHING!

of course not forgetting the cedar cheers that accompanied us since we were secondary ones.it was a blast.

ONCE A TRUE BLUE CEDARIAN
ALWAYS A TRUE BLUE CEDARIAN.

rock on and bring cedar to even greater heights.

always remembered: COURTESY HONESTY PERSEVERANCE

Courteous
Elegant
Diligent
Amiable
Righteous

but then again, of course there are many other adjectives to describe cedarians.
CHEER LOUD! and carry on the CEDAR SPIRIT! the never dying CEDAR SPIRIT

2005-10-10T22:53:00.000+08:00

SCHOOL SUCKS

HOMEWORK SUCKS

LIFE SUCKS.

the only thing that rock now is probably me.

everybody's exams over. PSLE END OF YEAR.

o level is so sucky!

~~STUPID CATHIGH AND MARIST~~ HAVE LOADS OF MODERATIONS! UP TO 10 MARKS FOR SOME SUBJECT! 2 GRADES!!!!!!!

homework's getting on my nerves

last week i ponned 3 days out of 5 days. WHEEE.

last week of being in cedar. must start singing school song already.

once a cedarian ALWAYS A CEDARIAN! ((:

ilovecedar.nowandforever.

justlikehowiloveyoutoo.

2005-10-04T20:32:00.001+08:00

SICK

bahh. i didnt go to school today. mc today and tml. wheee. heard they did alot of things. ive got tons of homework undone. how cool.

going to not stand pple ~~mugging.~~

because im not. growls. -loser-

i got a shock for a few hours when sum rabbit told me might not be able to minus the 4 bonus points. but thankfully, after checking it out with my teachers, WE CAN! wheee. ((:

have been seeing him almost everyday.

2005-10-01T00:20:00.000+08:00

english - B3 (im rather satisfied)
chinese - A1 (as of o levels)
higher chinese - C5 (pass can already la --> can minus 2 marks)
additional mathematics - B3 (_%()@_Q#Q! FUCK IT FUCK FUCK FUCK how can like tt )
--> 19 A1s in my class and 8 A2s. and im a fucking b3. FUCK!
elementary mathematics - A1 (+beams)
geography - B4 (1 mark to B3 la -growls)
social studies/history elective - D7 (3markstopass.gotbacktoday)
physics - C5 (blahhh)
chemistry - D7 (3markstopass.gotbacktodayaswell)

L1R5: 17 points
bonus points: 4 (hcl and cca)
therefore: 13.

go where? i dunno.
trying for sajc.
can go in? dun tink so.
gee.
irritating.

monday ate pizza hut and studied with sherman singchang kevin jonas.
tuesday sherman treat swensens.
wednesday jonas's birthday. ate swensens again. jonas treat. punk`d. LOL. it's fun. fun. fun.
and funny.
thursday wanru's birthday. ate pizza hut slacked at plaza sing with daniel xinwen terry keith marcus nicholas.
today watched corpse bride den mdm faridah treat the pple who did GUARD OF HONOURS to fish and co! and miss ng bee sun. 12 pple bill is $400. WOAH. LOL.

fat and yet saved alot of money. and i mean alot. -.-

shagged. off to bed. =)

2005-09-25T12:50:00.000+08:00

S.H.E - 别说对不起

望远[镜]看不见你

你的(心)飞去哪里

无声飞行享受黑夜的静谧

别说对不起别让我伤了心才说

不是故意我却无法怪你

别说对不起别让我的爱情变成

廉价物品我却只能爱你

闭上眼[睛]却看见你

想你的[好]代替无力

我相信你却开始不信任自己

别说对不起别让我灰了心才说

不是故意我却无法怪你

别说对不起别让我的爱情变得

小心翼翼我却只能爱你

用行动来证明

你的决心

不要说说而已

我想要的不只(是)sorry

(啊)...

无声飞行享受黑夜的静谧

别说对不起别让我伤了心才说

不是故意我却无法怪你

别说对不起别让我的爱情变成

廉价物品我却只能爱你

jay chou - 回到过去

一盏黄黄旧旧的灯

时间在旁闷不吭声

寂寞下手毫无分寸

不懂得轻重之分

沉默支撑跃过陌生

静静看着凌晨黄昏

你的身影失去平衡慢慢下沉

黑暗已在空中盘旋该往哪我看不见

也许爱在梦的另一端

无法存活在真实的空间

想回到过去 试着抱你在怀里

羞怯的脸带有一点稚气

想看你的看的世界，想在你梦的画面

~~只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜~~

想回到过去试着让故事继续

至少不再让你离我而去

分散时间的注意这次会抱得更紧

这样挽留不知还来不来得及

想回到过去

思绪不断阻挡着回忆播放

盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡

灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去

一转身孤单已躺在身旁

2005-09-25T12:01:00.000+08:00

~~willthebitchjustfuckofffrommyfriends?~~
hmm. yesterday i supposed to wake up at 6am den wake kevin up and singchang too. DEN rite, hurhur. i woke up later den end up is kevin call me and wake me up. LOL SUPER EARLY LA. i slept at one plus. shagged. LOL. so cabbed down to singchang's old hse and waited to be fetched by singchang's dad^^ to the institute of mental health. LOL. LOL. o.O like wth. they go there soccer match using their soccer field. HAHA. hmm den kevin got tripped and he rolled over! >.< .i won $2.70. lol lala. mj and yiting+liwen lose dun sad!! LOL. den we went to eat steamboat. the heat was so immense. the smoke was so choking. it sucks! LOL. would have been better off eating seoul garden la. the bbq so chaotah and alot la. was rather irritated with eating. LOL. lalala. den took bus back to mrt den walk to esplandae den go around and gia gia. den went home. very tired. LOL.

whywouldyouappearwhenileastexpecttoseeyou,wheniwasdoingsomethingdumb,ofabsolutestupidity.
yetimstillnothappyaftersolong.

2005-09-23T21:10:00.000+08:00

according to yiting. this is how we are getting back our papers.
wednesday -28th september 2005
- english paper 1 and 2
- higher chinese paper 1 and 2
- a maths paper 1 and 2

thursday - 29th september 2005
- emaths paper 1 and 2
- physics paper 1 and 2 (maybe 3?)
- geography paper 1 and 2
- social studies

friday - 30th september 2005
- chemistry paper 1 and 2 (maybe 3?)
- history elective

29th get back so many papers lehs! and it's wanru's birthday. hope all good good. den nobody will have bad mood that day. WHEEE. happy daY? hurhur. aiya that day see first ba. oh and like i say from next week onwards we'll be dismissed a period earlier at 12.45 rather than 1.35! wheee.

den monday rite we having career talks and tuesday having jc talks.

right.
haha.

today we go play pool $16+++ okays! LOL. but it was fun. but abit sians. LOL. den we go play tennis. wah tiring sia. LOL. but fun! den we went to eat at chomp chomp! LOL. nice food. and home. today was crap day. but it was so funny. LOL.

OH and i packed my room! and it's super super neat now. LOL. wheee. for the guest tml.

tml morning going to watch soccer match. den meet mj den lunch den mahjong at my house LOL. den after tt go marina eat steamboat. hahaha. im ~~growing super super fat fatter.~~ ~~LALALA ((:~~

2005-09-22T21:40:00.000+08:00

PRELIMS HAS ENDED ..

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
u noe today's physics practical marks the end of the prelims. my prelims. cedar prelims 2005. LOL. and tml's sec 1 -3 end of year beginning. GOOD LUCK TO ALL NON- SEC 4s HAVING EXAMS ((: JIA YOU! after u all end it's my turn AGAIn. o level. the last chance. WHEEE.
physics practical, im kinda confident la. but den again. not really lehs. BLAHH. dunno la. hope can help pull my paper up... x))

hmm. so after being lock up for like 4 hours, den we played uno for first few hours, linked it with history, then there is like BIG FOUR (allies) -me, mingjie, yiting, ber GERMANY -ariana and their good frens yq and yumei. LOL. den we so bored already, den me mj yt and ber play daidee with uno cards! LOL. yays. 1-10 is ace-ten, skip-jack, reverse-queen, draw 2-king and blue is spades, red is heart, green is clubs, and yellow is diamond! lOL. so fun. we had sum legend which dey refered to for first 2 games. LOL. so fun.

den raining heavily, hope i wont fall sick after walking in the rain and den entering the aircon bus. LOL. den we went to take away food and bring to cinema. WENT TO WATCH RED SHOE! LOL. i tell u it's so scary okays! i sit in the centre, foo-er sit on my right and mingjie on my left. both their sides got no pple.coz out of 5 seats we purposely take the centre 3 =x selfish but too bad. LOL. den rite. mingjie keep leaning on me and hiding, den yiting also, den i use jacket cover my eyes. LOL. and i keep screaming. because it's so scary. -toobaduwerentthere=(sighs.-oh wells. den there is this part, nothing wrong, yiting suddenly talk i chua tio and i scream, den heard pple luff =( LOL >.<>

den we went to far east to see liwen cut hair, den sit and talk cock, den go homee. LOL. tired.

~~ifonlyuweretheonebesidemeduringthemovie-ifonly.~~

2005-09-21T20:22:00.000+08:00

blogging is getting boring.
lol.
SECOND LAST DAY OF PRELIMS! today we had geography paper one. i ask my mum 7 wake me up. den i set my alarm 8, but i slept till 9! supposed to meet wanru 9.35 at bishan mrt. so zoooom all the way. LOL. den go sch. and did an hour fifteen minutes of geog. mCq, quite confident will get A1 for this part. haha. den went out to eat with yiting and liwen, den came home and bathe and went out again to meet kevin singchang jonas and sherman.. they were at the arcadee. met zhuangyong and friends, my cousin and friends, my friends' friend. alot la. LOL. hmm den left arcade wanted to go play, singchang say go eat swensens, and they treat again, so we eat the same ting.. lol. had fun. HAHA saw the same girl again. but mr manager is not there! bua.. not fun. nvm. we'll return to there again, they tried to make sumone jealous. LOL. lalalala. den went to play pool. chose a table FAR away, in the end no use. LOL. they were still NEAR.

i wrote a poem when i had extra time during the paper. but it's in chinese. so i cant show it. =pp

2005-09-20T18:48:00.000+08:00

hehs.
today got history paper. BLOODY HELL. i studied china. YES it did come out. BUT apparently, i just freaking cant remember the points when i saw the question ARH! and in the end i tink all my factors wrong because i was trying to write some LOGIC crap out. GEEEEE. and i liek so sians. i do until i fall aslp can. blahhs. den when i wake up. i realise the last few words was not relevant! ~~got WANRU, HURT~~ blah blah. So irritating. den i cancel cancel HAHA.

o 9.20 end paper, me mingjie and yiting went to eat mac breakfast ariana wanted to come along, but walk halfway her mum already come so she went home. yiting tio suaned and attacked by all of us! LOL. mac breakfast was nice. hehe.

den hmm. i went home. and fell aslp! at arnd 12 after onlining. den haha set alarm 12.40, when 12.40 wah freaking tired. din feel like waking up. changed to 1pm. kns. tired until i wanted to pangseh them hors. but cannot. so blahhhhh! )T*(#Q_$()@. woke up and bathe and went out to meet them at arcade.

see them arcaded for a while. LOL. so many familiar faces. the past. haha. den we went next door for swensens. they treat me eat earthquake and some side food. den we played truth or dare. max 2 truth. LOL. den singchang exceeded the 2 so must do dare. den i dare him go ask the MALE INDIAN manager for no. so he came over and he was like "u want my no?" "u gay?" LOL. den after tt we explained adn the man wrote a whole load of crap there. swensens toa payoh den 6255**** cant remember. den rite love always. BLAH HAHAH. all over his arm. SO FUNNY LA. luff utnil pengs. we met a nice waitress very sporting. LOL. it was fun. oh rights. HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN SHERMAN! hahahaha.

den went to play pool after eating, hmm. yar went in screened the placee, no familiar faces, come out of the toilet went to our CORNER table. and bOo. HAHA. no nid elaborations. lalalala.. =))

~~fate?~~

2005-09-19T17:21:00.000+08:00

HMMM.

today. had amaths paper 2. i tink it was easier than paper 1 though i already ahd question 1 wrong because careless never see properly. tsk tsk. freak arh. nvm. 2 marks. AHHA. bleahs. then had chem paper 1 and paper 2. tink i screwed it up. always did anyway so whatever! LOL. fail den fail la. but the cert v ugly. LOL. dun care dun care.

went to eat pizza hut with mingjie yiting and yunqian. it was as if everything was over. so nice to slack. so my schedule for next few days is as follow. i'll turn into a pig agaiN!

tuesday.
history elective paper. 7.50 -9.20 den dismissed!
head to mac for the breakfast!
slack arnd.
meet kevin and pple for movie den swensens! wheeee. ((:
home to study for geog.

wednesday.
geography paper 1. 10.30-11.45 can slp late YES. lol mcq only.
den dunno go where. go out slack perhaps.

thursday.
physics practical. ~~LAST PAPER OF PRELIMS~~!!! im in first session. shud end by 9.30 but kena lock up until afternoon. sians.
go out watch movie shud be la.
den after tt go out play and movie.
play untli late late. WHEEE.

friday.
no school. coz no art. wheeee! yiting just now suddenly say she want play pool sia. i kena shocked. LOL. but nvm so we'll be going to play pool on fri! me mingjie yiting yunqian maybe and others! HAHA.

saturday.
mahjong at my hse! from morning till evening. den head to marina for steamboat. LOL. wanru sorry arh. i mite not be able to taunt =x. but i try alrights? SORRY. dun be angry with me! i can go but i dun tink i can stay. yupps.

it's as if o levels is over aint it. but it's not. we just wanna ~~party~~. WHEEEE.

and we took on separate paths,but one fine day we'll cross on each other's once again. just like how much i longed to see ur face in the bustling crowds again. to search for the silhouette so familiar. so near yet so far away. even if i only get to see you from a distance, im more than contented because at least i know that you still exist. even though you might never notice me again. insignificant existance as though ive never been part of your life. as long as u feel happier this way, even if im down i'll be glad just seeing you smile. ((:

2005-09-18T18:41:00.000+08:00

it's as bad as it can be.
my fault.
bAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

anyway today i went to 2 temples to do sum ceremony dunno wad also. den i prayed for all my frens. for happiness money good results and health! wheee. haven study finihs chem! dead. BYE!
~~continuetogooutwithmyfrenla.=(~~

SORRY FOR PUTTING YOU THROUGH ALL THIS STRESS AND RUBBISH AND LAME CRAP. SORRY.

2005-09-17T22:48:00.000+08:00

i hate myself for loving you.
i hate myself for being so stupid.
i hate myself for doing all the things that are putting me into discomfort.
i hate huiyen. so much.

nobody's fault. just mine. aHa.
first time hearing me blame myself? LOL

i am going to forget you. YES I WILL. lol.
and go back to the past, alrights? you will help me yar? dun ignore me man. dun be an ASS.
-thoughyoualreadyare=X- hehes just kidding la.

go watch red shoe with me! you pig.

it must have been just a dream.
me in your arms.
*slaps*
wake up from ur dreams, huiyen.
enough is enough.
but it was comfortable and nice.
it makes me happy.

the past will remain as memories.
memories i'll always remember.
EH wah lau u better keep ur room door open for me hors.
if not arh u bloody hell #Q()_#($) X))
BETTER KEEP YOUR PROMISE LA!

i tink it's better this way.
can bully u
can vent my frustrations.
at least you'll still be there as a fren.
tt kind of tings cannot last one.
xiang tong le orh.
but wo hai shi hui jealous de hors.

friends forever ((: -rememberour4000thdaydatehors-

still got alot of tings to say. but since nobody's really reading it. FORGET IT. LOL.

im remaining as a happy kid.
i shall not let all these trivial matters spoil my day.
and u better keep me happy! WAHAHAH.

youlookreallyattractivewhenyouareconcentrating.imserious.((:

oh rights. anyway. friday had e maths paper 2 and hcl paper 2. i thtink i careless again. hopefully my A1 will stay with me. i need it so. BLAHS. den went out to eat with my frens. a fwe things happen. talk to mj again. ying lang ru shi. BLAHHH. wadeva la k. den went home bathe went to meet JASMINE AND TIANHEE. yar. lol. den they studying. so i went to sit with kailing. dun wan spoil anyting ma. den went pool. and went to chalet. lOl. my cousin's birthday. oh rights. so im supposed to meet kevin, tsc and jonas. yar so i reach le den dey come. with alcohol. WHEEE. one bottle of barcardi breezer each. den played pokr walked around. brought two cousins along. yuwen and angela. den yuwen asked me wad's ttt's guys name i said jonas. den she went shit. and loads of things go on. LOL. bleahs. nvm. sians. so walk until 1 plus. gate closed. den must walk one freaking one big round to go in. wanted to climb over the gate. but very ugly lehs. so decided not to. but really v tired okays. den played dai dee for like until two am 3. den mahjonged till like 5 plus am. wanted to go watch sunrise. but very tired. so dun wan le la. so slp. until morning. den play mahjong again. and went to eat dinner.a nd home.

2005-09-15T21:06:00.000+08:00

tuesday.
amaths and hcl paper one. amaths was SCREWED like i confirm lose more than 25 marks. read wrong question FUCK. hcl paper one was kind difficult to write very easy to write out of point. and there was a question about bo ke. i tot it was poker or sumting den manel said Blogger. i was like yar hors. but then again i din plan to do tt. bao zhang bao dao rocks la! ((:

wednesday.
ive got no papers. stayed home to study from morning onwards. have to chiong 25 chapters of physics and many chapters of geog though i only did like 4 chapters la. LOL. den went to pizza hut to lunch wif kevin singchang and jonas. den home. saw tianhee, jotham and frens while walking to pizza hut. they in kfc! ((:

today.
today got geography. heng the 4 chaps i did came out sia. plate tec, river, coasts mixed with weathering. WHEEE. so quite alright. forgot to bring human geog home. so i do one human question only. and i do on settlement. quite easy to score. just look at picture and pick out all the important points and write den explain a little. yupps. physics paper one. many careless mistakes and i seriously nid lessons on sec 4 topics. really. HELP ME ANYONE? oh rite.physics paper two sucked too. section a was quite okay.so section B worth 30 marks. i see and see dunno how to do. really wanted to just hand in a blank piece of paper. but i just couldn't sighs. so just crap out loads of stuff. den anyhow link. LOL.
after school went to pp mac wif mj yq and yiting to eat. den took bus go tp meet jasmine. den with her we went to meet tianhee, jotham and frens again. hmm. den half way the guys left. only left me tianhee and jasmine. den jasmine abit pms-ing like tt lehs. i dunno. oh wells. den left me and tianhee. talked a little. crapped a little. worked a little more. went home. walked to his hse there take bus ((:
*holdmetightly; andpleasedontletmegoagainwillyou? - i feel happy just being in your arms.

2005-09-13T17:56:00.000+08:00

I dreamt I had an interview with GOD.
"So you would like to interview me?" GOD asked.
"If you have the time." I said.
GOD smiled."My time is eternity.What questions do you have in mind for me?"
"What surprises you most about humankind?"
GOD answered,

- that they get bored with childhood, they rush to grow up and then long to be children
again +
- that they lose health to make money and then lose their money to restore their health +
- that by thinking anxiously about the future, they forget the present such that they
live in neither the present nor the future +
- that they live as if they will never die, and die as though they had never lived +

GOD's hands took mine and we were silent for a while.
And then I asked,
"As a parent, what are some of the life's lessons you want your children to learn?"

* to learn they cannot make anyone love them, all they can do is let themselves be loved`
* to learn that it is not good to compare themselves to others`
* to learn to forgive, by practicing forgiveness`
* to learn that it only takes a few seconds to open profound wounds in those they love, and it can take many years to heal them`
* to learn that a rich person is not one who has the most but is one who needs the least`
* to learn that there are people who love them dearly but simply do not know yet know how to
express or show feelings`
* to learn that two people can look at the same thing and see it differently`
* to learn that it is not enough to forgive one another but they must also forgive themselves`

"Thank you for your time."I said humbly.
"Is there anything else you'd like your children to know?"

GOD smiled and said,
"Just know that I am here."

"always."

some rather meaningful sentences from a website.
i'll be there for you. these five words i swear to you.

i think it really stands for a lot of stuff.
even if it's between you and me.
didnt know it had been only me all along.
i thought you would be with me for a new beginning.
i guess i was wrong.
i think too much.
it was just one-sided.
just like the wheel in a car's boot.
im just a spare tyre.
never liked to take initiative.
and look at what have become of me.
but ive learnt a lesson this time.
ive learnt that i will never be a smart alec again.
ive learnt that i will never love someone till i know im loved.
or maybe,
ive learnt never to fall in love again.
once bitten twice shy.
twice bitten third broken.
misleading words. misleading names.
yet it all boils down to friends only.
love has no boundaries. yes. tt's why u exist in my life.
love is blind. yes. tt's why u still exist in my life.
love hurts. yes. tt's why my scarred arm has more new friends.
love needs no reason. yes. tt's why i love you.
love is a sacrifice. yes. tt's why ive decided to let you go.
love makes one's mood go haywire. yes. tt's why i couldnt control my emotions.
love is stupid. yes. tt's why ive become dumb.
ive done nothing to deserve this.
den again maybe it was retribution and it was planned that u bestowed it on me.
serve me right for being an idiot who can only admire your skills for afar.
serve me right for everything.
congrats. you have succeeded in seeking retribution for your fellow comrades.
those ive hurt. you may come out to rejoice. come out and celebrate.
he did it.
almost crazy.
if only. nothing has ever happened.
if only. you had not tell me (butdenagain)
if only. backspace exists in real life.
if only.
i would forget you if i could. but i could not.
i would not think about you if i could. but i could not.
i would not miss you if i could. but i just could not help doing so.

prelims sucked.

2005-09-12T19:24:00.000+08:00

it'd hurt. just bear with it.
it'll be over in no time.

HAHAHA =(

2005-09-12T18:20:00.000+08:00

contradicting feelings.

1) i learnt how to play pool! and i managed to win a few times! wheeee. and today play murderer i won with full life. LOL. =)) ~~-nowiunderstandhowyoufeel-~~

2) today prelims resumed with SS and e maths. emaths was ~~FINE~~. okays i mean GOOD. hope no careless mistake though. SS i only focused mainly on merger and separation and i did it. but. i dunno. abit wrong bah. and futile means wasted. and alot of us wrote it's not wasted. how great. GEEE.

3) im operaing with daniel. LOL

idunnowhythesuddenchangeinattitudeandithoughtyesterdaywasfine.guessitwasallwrong.pleasedunliftmyhopessohighupanddenthrowmedownagain.ithurts.

i dun think you will everr understand;
wad i want to say to you remains a mystery.
~~although we both know what it's all about;~~
maybe everything is happening too quickly.
in like 12 days.

~~infatuated/like.~~
confused myself.
so i shall not force you.

2005-09-09T23:41:00.000+08:00

I GOT PANGSEH-ED

by who?
by the asshole. =(

who's the asshole?
u dunno?

i tell u
it's ~~tian hee~~.

now i blogged. HAPPY? BOO.

there's sumting i want to say to u but i just cant say it out.

EQR&W)*E_Q()E+Q_)w

2005-09-07T22:59:00.000+08:00

YOUU BROKE MY HEART. :'(

supposed to meet tianhee at 10.30 and his morning call's at 9.50. but after 5 misssed calls i still nv wake up. so i woke up rather late. but met at 11. we want to eat mac breakfast. LOL. managed to catch it. HENG SIA. hahaha. den met tsc arcaded. watched the maid. freaking scary lehs. why pple keep saying not scary. IM NOT HUMJIKIA! BOO. den met jasmine. and sieweng. today saw many pple. lol. den we study at delifrance. den gary came along. zhuangyong wanru jieming were at lib 3rd floor. heard kiat was somewhere nearby too. HAHA. den watched them pooled.home sweet home.

kenabulliedlikemad.teased?idonno.maybeit'sreallyjustaname.butimangrypissedsad.upieceofmeanpork.

GROWL-

2005-09-07T00:59:00.000+08:00

IM SICK OF STUDYING MATHS.-tsk tsk-
~~yet i just cannot start on the other subjects.~~

FUCK PRELIMS!!!!!!!

went out wif tianhee today to study again.=D. i finished chinese 1A and TCHS paper plus 1 chapter of SS! booo so little. sickeningly little. charles came abit after tt. and we thought we saw da malay bugger. THE HP THIEF. so scared he prey on other pple. so i keep walking and see if he's still there. dunno issit him lehs. i cannot remember how he look already ma. =( if i see tt guy steal i'll run after him and whack him and ARHH ask him abck for my phone >.<>

i dont like lightbulbs. they freak me out. LOL.

my life sucks.
this is the time for study ONLY! and maybe bubbee hubbee. but not. ERHEM. HAHAHAH

daddy sucks. mummy dont. change lock. freak u. stalk me? freak u

im still online. FREAK FREAK FREAK. study. HUIYEN. STUDY!

AGAIN.

2005-09-06T00:07:00.000+08:00

hmm today wake up slight later than sch day. supposed to 6.15 wake up 6.45 meet jonas at interchange. but i 6.40 den wake up. bubbee hubbee's morning call no use wors. lol. so was late. den again. today's late day. went to see the marist soccer team match against the mansjusrians. the other team v late referee also v late. kns wait wait wait wait. den 5 minutes into the match score already. YAYS well done. but in the end tie. 3 all. boo. den alot of tings la. haha. but i tio sunburnt. kns. den after tt went to eat pizza hut wif kevin tsc and jonas. den me kevin and tsc went to watch herbie. after tt tsc met tianhee wif me. den they piaa daytona. both equally good. after tt. err. went to see tianhee play billiard with the others. never study at all today. TSK.

i <3 bubbee hubbee. ((:

sighs_it's you_but u just dunno. would u ever noe?

2005-09-04T17:14:00.000+08:00

难以忘记初次见你 一双迷人的眼睛
在我脑海里你的身影 ~~挥散不去~~
握你的双手感觉你的温柔 ~~真的有点透不过气~~
你的天真我想珍惜看到你受委屈我会伤心
只怕我自己会爱上你 不敢让自己靠的太近
怕我没什么能够给你爱你也需要很大的勇气
只怕我自己会爱上你 也许有天会情不自禁
~~想念只让自己苦了自己爱上你是我情非得已~~
爱上你是我情非得已什么原因
我竟然又会遇见你 我真的真的不愿意 就这样陷入爱的陷阱

out again.

2005-09-04T02:08:00.000+08:00

woke up like at like 9 plus. couldnt go to slp. kahjiao-ed tian hee. den argued wif dad. den he got a new sim card for me. SO U ALL CAN MESSAGE ME AT MY ORIGINAL NO ALREADY. supposed to fetch my sister from tuition because parents not free. so met up wif tianhee first den went to fetch my sis. ate macs AGAIN. did more maths today. finished 2 papers. go see them play poool sis play arcade and para para -.- it was freaking hell funny. oh wells. cant blame. hmm. den watch pool again. den go watch movie one more chance. quite nice but lame. hehs. den watch pool again go eat at lor 5 came home 1+ now they still at playground chatting! i also wan go la.GROWLS-

the tighter you hold
the stricter you control me
~~THE MORE I REBEL~~
im sorry mum.

oh there were many dian deng paos-to be. HAHAHA.

i am afraid the feeling is coming back again.
i dont wanna be hurt again.
and i dont wanna hurt again.
i dont wanna be treated nicely again.
and mistake it for other stuffs again.

too many of u just makes me even more confused about my thoughts.
yet when im supposed to be studying for my prelims,
i cant help but start thinking of youu.
alot of thoughts again.
but i just cant type it out here...............

anyways...

2005-09-03T00:09:00.000+08:00

so 30th aug. start of prelims.
screwed chem prac up. as in really screwed. and there were pple who got the wrong solutions. got locked up for like 4 hours. ate picnic-ed played badminton played concentration did loads of stuff. SO LAME.

31st aug teacher's day celebrations.
gave the teachers their card and stuff. den went back kcs. at first only got me. den tianhee came ((: den after tt mroe pple in the end the group of us went town to eat. me tianhee laypeng cherie monica desmond lijian jonathan yaoping. sally never go. LOl.went to eat.after tt went to take neoprints. so fun. after tt cherie laypeng monica went off. the 5 guys and me went to play pool. but alot of restrictions coz in sch u den v mafan and stuff. so left me jian and tian hee. den tian hee keep eating damn pig.

it was so nice to see all of them again.
to find back my childhood memories.
when i had no troubles or worries.
it is wad i wish for now.

1st sep
met up wif tian hee again. went wif him and his fren toshyi to comex to shop shop. den go study a while den he go play pool again. so i followed him again. and my hand kena whacked by pool ball. damn hard. got blue black okays! =((

2nd sep
today english paper. quite tough. forgot to bring jacket. cold. >.< read further down for other stuffs. bloody fucker.

additional.

2005-09-03T00:06:00.000+08:00

stupid entertainment mac. got 2 cctv BUT IT"S NOT RECORDING. otherwise i would have evidence and sue tt stupid fucker till his pants drop. BOO. and let tian hee fuck him upside down left side. BUT NO. it's not recording. so all these will not happen. we cannot see wad he did. we cannot see who he is.

den my earhole bleeding again.
wad's wrong.
i dunno.
going blind.
kill me softly.

okays. i noe v little read my blog.
but pleaSe if u ever do.
just do me this favour.
email me your hp no and contacts.
at guides_5566@hotmail.com
THANKS PEOPLE!

BLOODY FUCKER

2005-09-02T23:06:00.002+08:00

violent entry ahead.
please click X at the top right hand corner if you are uncomfortable.

this is the most fucked up day of my life.
studying in tp entertainment mac like always.
happily.
until evening or so.
some stupid malay fucktard approach me.
he's in his early twenties.
with some kind of stupid hairstyle which made him look fucking spastic.
brown hair and some long fringe.
light brown shirt and faded jeans.
no tattoos no nothing.
clean shaven.
but he has this BAD GUy LOOK.
damn he took a pencil case.
and approach me
saying he found it nearby, and asked if i needed any stationary.
offered some correction tape, which i kindly turned down.
den he asked if i was sure.
i said YAR.
so he walk away.
but turn back to see for a moment.
a few minutes later den did i realise my hp was missing.
E+_W@$(@+#(_!+_@#O!}
U BLOODY ASSHOLE. FUCKING IDIOT. YOU SUCK.
you son of a bitch.
i hope you'll be born wif a son without asshole.
at least return me my sim card won't you?
i need my contacts.
badly.
u cannot do tt to me.
u wimp.
no money issit.
ass.
nid money for sex change also dun nid resort to stealing.
and i was thinking why did u only approach me.
why didnt i check properly.
why was i so gullible.
if only i had checked when u turn back to look.
at least i can run down and chase after u.
why are you fucking retard.
reported police i doubt got use.
im feeling fucking down fucking pissed fucking sad.

my phone's less than a month old. yet u hell bloody fucker.
i hope u get choked eating fishball.
i hope u get knocked down by a fucking car.
i hope ur d*** gets chopped off accidentally.
i curse you.

you bastard.

police said he mite haf used black magic. but i tink it's just us being stupid.
YOU fucking pig.
damn you.
im serious.

wo yao wo de dian hua la.

sighs.
nothing i can do.
father not understanding at all.
wtf.
nobody ever understands wad's going on.
my dad's so fucked up.
LISTEN UP.
u are a fucker.
i hate you.

i lose the phone
and im not xin tong?
YOU TINK IM NOT?

u noe me SO NOT WELL
so bloody shut the fuck up la.
you had to piss me off when im feeling so down.

you just want to see me cry rite.
well you've succeeded.

GUYS JUST SUCK LA OKAYS?

blahhs. anyway thank you tian hee for everyting. i dunno wad to say le. but thank you.

BLOODY FUCKER

2005-09-02T23:06:00.001+08:00

you are vertically challenged. so shut up.

2005-08-29T22:11:00.000+08:00

sow discord for all u want. but bloody hell fuck off. this is between me and him. <s>it's none of ur fucking business.

LONG TIME NO UPDATE!

2005-08-29T09:12:00.000+08:00

18 aug: mingjie's bdae went for a feast at NYDC.
26 aug: went to eat after school. went to meet kevin singchang jonas after tt. they play soccer. stinks. den went to spook show at suntec. nice. saw marcus andrew thow xin reuben hongyi daniel. did i miss out anybody? like somebody will care. den went to kallang with the 3 pple to eat. den after tt went ecp. walked like a super long dist. loads of tings happen. the stars are so pretty at nite. looking at the waves hitting against the breakwater. so much emotions so much thoughts yet all i can do is put on a smile and pretend that i am happy.
27 aug: went to anger's bdae. stayed over. had fun gossiping. din really slp. gosh. tired. but nice. so much new news. HAHAHA
28 aug: slept alot. watch tv. cried watching homerun and that hui jia show. really hit me. guess tt's the only way i can cry without people asking why am i crying. to channel my sadness into tears and cry with the story of the show.

im tired of putting up a pretence.

-go away.all of you-

2005-08-29T09:01:00.000+08:00

i aint a good friend of anybody. ANYBODY.
i aint a good lover of yours.
im just an asshole which suffers alot of rejection.

you have no right to say me.
you have no right to speak to me in that tone,
making it sound as if everything's my fault.
were you there when i needed you,
you in this case does not only refer to one person.

first you don't care about me.
there are others in your life.
fine. fair. since i have others in mine.
den you make me feel unwanted.
and just left me to hang on to you.
but no. i am not going to do it.
so i let you go.
now. you are saying i dont care about your life.
i dont care about you.
you blame me for not being there when you needed someone to talk to.
you blame me for going out with your friends and not bothering about you.
i am not going to say sorry.
it's going to be useless.
they are my friends too.
and i have my basic rights to go out with who i want to.
and you cannot stop me.
if i didn't stop you. den u fucking dont come and stop me.

i can guarantee you i am not feeling good.
but what is there that i can do?
nothing.
i dont want to be there alone.
to face all the problems between us alone.
so just leave me alone? FAIR?

so many problems.
yet so little people i can talk to.
maybe certain stuff can only be spoke to you.
but now.
i cannot tell it to you anymore.
you just do not understand dont u.

all of you. just go away.

maybe im insensitive.
you you you.
so many of you.
you all do not understand.
if you want to blame me for everything.
GO AHEAD.

OH.

2005-08-14T00:28:00.000+08:00

so long never update. like 13 days?
let's try to recall big big events.

1st aug? cannot remember

2nd aug? also cannot remember

3rd aug? cannot recall

4th aug? ARH finally. BERNICE's BIRTHDAY! we ate sakae.

5th aug? dunnno.

6th aug? dunnoo.

7th aug? really dunno.

8th aug? hmm went school in red and white. guides squad did well. took alot of pictures? had fun. went to watch charlie and the chocolate factory. cute but boring show. but very cool also. met up wif wanru xinwen keith daniel. went to marina south to see daniel's dad's performance. realised ive been to his church and tt i haf a vcd of his father's show! hahaha. oh wells. den was late and walking very long distances. went for countdown. went to esplanade to see fireworks at 12 am. got screamed at. day ended badly. kena followed by ahbengs at tp. wadeva la. dun feel liek talking about it. school celebration was quite funny. oh ya wanru spat at daniel. ACCIDENTALLY. and loads of other stuff happened. btu i dun feel liek talking about it anymore.

9th aug? went out to study den went to hospital wif yq to see parade and shooting star went home.

10 aug? slacked. national day ma.

11 aug? went out for dinner wif xinwen wanru gavin daniel.

12 aug? exp chi take back results. scary sia. see their face. very bad. sighs. i felt sad for them nearly cry. only 53% distinction. maris stella 18% only. whole singapore very bad. aiyo. den i had englihs oral. sucked. heck. i screwed it up. fuck it. wadeva.

13 aug? completed daniel's belated bdae present. donno wad he'll tink about it. but suan le la.

my life is so whatever now.
and im so sad.
oh wells.
prelims in 16 days time.
but.
i haven started revision.
screw it.
i hate my life.
fuck.

once again. SICK. =((

2005-07-30T12:47:00.000+08:00

okie so here goes

MONDAY.
in schoool. i tink it was the -piss-teachers-off- day. first han lao shi came in. dunno why we were v fidgety. ~~we were not paying attention~~. we were talking amongst ourselves nobody was listening. as anybody would have reacted. she shouted "you all dun wan study rite? den i shan't teach anymore" and she threw the marker on the floor. but after tt we kinda tone down. it just wasnt us. not sure why. den after tt we never do our english homework. there's so many so many pieces of homework how to complete. doiii. and once again. miss lizah scolded us and screamed.ahhhh.not that i care. geography had geog test. BADD but heck la. history we went to the meeting place. den i sat wif manel minghui and suchen. coz i was telling manel some stuff wad. den miss ng went "eh the four of u cannot sit together. wun do work one. will talk. one clique one" then again SINCE WHEN HAVE I BECOME THEIR CLIQUE? so she said our class many cliques. like we dunno like tt. LOL. we bond in a clique and then we have cliques-bonding ma. LOL blehs. a maths was the MOST FUNNY one. just like wad we always do, 4c did not do our work again. so she went "u all dun wan do ur work den i got nothing to teach le, u all self study. i dun need teach le" den she gathered her books, strolled out of the class while SMILING and said "~~byebye~~" to us. so my dear monitress and a maths rep went after her. she was sitting at prefects room the bench there playing wif her marker! she's like so old le la! but she v funny. so when she came back she um-chioed can! UM-CHIO leh! wah piangs. the next few days the class tinks she's v funny. i heard from yunqian that mdm lum say she tell the teachers right from the beginning of the year she like our class alot; she want to help us in our amaths but we dun wan go the work. and stuff. so disappointing rite! den she say SCOLD wait THE MANEL FACE BLACK BLACK AGAIn,howcute. lol x)) mdm lum scared of manel's b l a c k face. hahahaa. den after school i went out to study wif manel at plaza sing and told her all about it. from a GREAT DISLIKE FOR MDM LUM, it has since became her most anticipated lesson and she's decided to do all her work. mdm rum;s damn cute and we are the only class that LOVES<3<3>

den that nite we had some choral concert at the esplanade in collaboration wif the arts festival? ya i tink so. 5 choirs performed. CEDAR fairfield methodist victoria school victoria junior college and hwa chong institution. it was an eye-opener la. but it's kinda scary. ohwells. if u were there to listen. the quietness of the hall and suddenly a high pitch scream. and when it sounds eerie. and the guys can actually sing like girls. THEY ROCK MAN. and i tot cedar choir damn pro. in comparison they seemed not as good. geee. LOL. really u noe. went home pretty late. oh ya. <s>many cedarians went and they are dressed weirdly. prolly over-dressed. pple who went will noe. the group of us were in uniform and we rock! lol. coz we can comment on other pple's dressing it was DAMN fun i tell you. hehs.

TUESDAY.
uh huh. so was coughing very very badly when i woke up. wasnt feeling well. but just go sch los. since stupid dad keep waking me up. how stupid. and it was raining heavily and he's sending mum to work so cannot send me. geee. so fine i took an umbrella and took a bus to school. growls- den throughout the day was feeling very very sickly. as in VERY. plus i got not much voice to talk. after english i finally cannot take it decided to go to sick bay and ponned the last two period. so lie in the sickbay for a while wif manel beside me THANKS GIRL! principal came in and ask manel what is she doing there and if my temp has been taken den say haven so she ask manel take le den go back class. so take 37.8 deg!! i tink not v high rite? den susan leong WANTED to send me home le. but miss nair came and say rest for half an hour if temp nv drop den must go home. so okie. but 15 minutes later miss nair came back and take again. 38.2 deg! -faints- must go home which i really dun wan. coz means one of my parents must take leave. but principal insisted. so dad came brought me to doc. at there. my temp was 38.5. i was like. eeeeek eeeks! so got like 5 kinds of medicine. went home ate porridge and slp. through out was msging xinwen daniel and manel. haha. -.- so spent the whole day slping and eating and watching korean series stairway to heaven. very sad. some parts i cry ='( hahahaha booo.

WEDNESDAY.
on mc. no nid go sch. BUT i cant slp till afternoon like i always do. coz keep coughing. very uncomfortable. haha never mind so wake up continue watching tv. eat breakfast and medicine. cry more. lie on the sofa under 2 blankets no fan windows closed. according to daniel- sweat out all the toxics ma. den i took my temperature. ~~39.6~~! i was like WTF why so high. but since only i alone so suan le. continue to watch tv. and cry more hahahaaa. but the reading increase v fast. thermometer from LO start rite den37.3 38.4 39.4 39.5 39.6 it din even pass 36. someting la. never do anyting tt day except watch tv. nv do homework nv study for physics test the next day. heard from classmates teacher punish them. aiyo. nerd chan. tsk tsk. read manel's blog for more details. or yanyi's too. haha

THURSDAY.
had no voice so couldn't participate in the class debate. so became the judge wif suchen. lol. wah the debate v scary. many speakers became v ~~sarcastic and bitchy~~. i dunno why. manel was like damn pissed off. throwing tings arnd. den minghui was rolling her eyes i tink going to drop out le la. hahaha. but yeahs. it was quite fun lol. got ying yong wen nv do. sigh. had physics test after school. it was kinda tough =( dun care. oh ya. my 2 chinese "poems" got sent in by han lao shi for some "cedar collection" and den nidta sign soem declaration form and then must print out the ting. -.- if get in den my name will appear in the book ((: wheeeeee. den after sch went out wif manel yq mj to eat.den went shopping for a black shirt and earrings. den went home. sickly.

FRIDAY.
hehs. TODAY we celebrated RACIAL HARMONY DAY! so woke up especially early frmo usual 6.30am i woke up at 5.45am ks. wah piang den meet up wif joyce and yingxuan under my block. want take cab there. so waited. since 6.30 till 6.50!!! den got cab! f. call cab. operator always busy. stupid stupid. den raech sch going to seven le. faster change into the sari. it was very rush. whole class v busy lehs. damn funny. den perspiring profusely la. damn. go assembly damn paiseh. it was very difficult to walk in a sari and in heels k. hahahaah. if RHD we can gan chiong till like tt. den prom nite how? LOL. den saw eric. hmpf. he looks normal leh. hahahaha. so we have to sit on the floor so stupid! LOL. it was quite fun. den miss leong dun allow pple who wear guys costume so dey must change out. only this year cannot wear. i dunno why also. -.- stupid. so ber and vivo hafta change out. geee. but after sch dey faster change back. HAHA. took like loads of pictures. wif alot of pple? during recess nv eat. in class take pic during lesson time. recess still taking after school also take. like so FUN. i like to take pictures. LOL.my sari pink colour. x)) PEOPLE WHO HAVE ANY PICTURES GOT ME DE PLEASE SEND ME. especially class pic hors! thanks in advance hehs! some class did chem prac in ethnic costumes LOL heng we got no pe last year we got pe can. hahahaha.

after sch busied till like 3 plus den wait for wanru amaths remedial finish. den me wanru and jieming went out together. hahaa. we went town. and jieming and i PIERCED OUR EARS. lol. my second one on the left year 5th altogether. hehs. so fun. wheeeee. bUt it was damn pain! 1 year nv pierce le los. wah den throughout the day feeling v sick i dunno why. even more sick. got headache and all tt dunno issit because of the earhole. gee. wanru said got something to do wif it. after tt walked arnd. den we go esplanade library and study till 8 plus. very nice!!! haha very fun day. I LOVE TO LOOK AT THE MERLION SPIT! hahahaha. blehs. den went to bishan ate pastamania at 9.30?? den went home at 10 plus. hahaha.

SATURDAY.
never go out. played wif my bro laptop and sit here le. shall go study later.

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SAD

2005-07-24T18:32:00.000+08:00

monday.
cant really remember wad happen le.
daniel decided to initiate a conversation. because i promised not to disturb him this week since he's so BUSY. hmpf. ~~stupid~~

tuesday.
tagged daniel's blog about her. guess he wasnt too happy about it. i said sorry. but sorry no cure eh? aiya refused to stay online any longer. was getting upset about it already. kinda guilty. controlled myself from doing it again. went off rather abruptly.

wednesday.
went to eat pizza hut wif mingjie ziling and kiat after school. ber came to find us after tt. was very full. LOL. went back wif many cedarians. gossipping session.

thursday.
oh we had pe. din rollerblade. was rather unhappy. played softball. anyhow play. poor mr chan got scolded by us. LOL. had remedial after school. but ~~i din feel like going~~. so i ponned and stay in class. only got like 20 pple attended? but i stayed in class wif vivian and unfortunately mr chia saw. gee.and he reported em to miss chng. ass. den waited for those pple to come out from remedial. den wanted to go home earlier de. but in the end stay until dey dismissed. walked out wif mingjie dey all. den in tp. dun feel like going home. so ask yunqian to come out and study wif me. she took quite long. but ya. nvm. lol. den met ziyan. den we study together. after tt i went to visit yunqian's dad at the hospital wif her. coz she said she scared. den since it was still early. so i went. den hope he recovers soon. many of her relatives there. quite paiseh. den v scary also. and we decided to do relative velocity there. ahhaha. den she went to tp wif me to take bus while her family went to take cab. she got cab-sickness. but thanks. it was so kind of u. next time go again yeah? oh ya. when we left the hospital. right after we stepped out. behind us an argument broke out. i kpo so ask yunqian to watch. den dey were really punching each other k. it was like the first time i saw a real fight. so scary. one guy was saying TA MA DE the other guy threw him a punch and say u dun scold my mama. SO WEIRD la. but booo. so scary. he walked towards us. i thought he going to whack us also. booo.

friday.
yunqian said she want to stay back for guides to do some stuff. so me and her and mingjie stayed back in school. den i taught the sec3 s some knots coz got competition next day. den during the meeting i went to do maths wif mingjie. we spent like one hour on the FIRST question of the relative velocity question before i finally solved it like. THE SENSE OF ACHIEVEMENT DAMN GREAT Ks x)) like mdm lum say. LOL. den went to eat dinner wif the npcc pple. reached home around 10.

saturday.
weekends here. wheee. finally. so i slept till like almost afternoon and woke up for brunch. lol. den meeting wanru wanling and qisi and samantha at 4 supposedly. but i was like damn engrossed with the korean show my mum watching so i watched until like 415 faster bathe den dressed into guides uniform. arrived around 4.45? izzit i tink so. den dey eating at koufu. after tt we went to newton to meet the others. den only rachel and karyn there -.- but subsequently the rest arrived. den st nicks almost whole troop there when i just reached. den rachel kept talking to us. and tell us wad our boyfriend (andrew) not going. we were like - u tell us for wad? LOL crazy hors? den we wanted to walk there den abit raining. st nicks was at the bus stop we wanted them to win early bird so tt dey cant win best supporting. lol. TERRY PLANNED TO GIVE THEM BEFORE HAND LE LOS! biased biased!. okie. so we walk and the rain getting quite heavy so we took a bus and we reached before st nicks. but i saw a school entering le. we wun get early bird so heng.

den upon arriving at the gate there was NOBODY to usher us. until a certain dist (heng we got go there before if not will get lost de) den see thow xin. aiya den he say wad he wun bully me -likereal-! okie. so he brought us up to the reception. the reception pens not working v lousy! not good! so met many pple there le. like jared and pple shaked hands and wished them good luck. den daniel came also. den i decided to dao him so i hmpf him. den he point to his rank leh! like so mean rite. so i was like yes SIR. so irritating. once again rachel was giving some kind of loook. bleahs!! okie so after v long of signing, we are too early the school aint prepared so we cant enter the hall yet. so we were supposed to go to the canteen. at this point of time apparently our usher - thow xin is not there anymore. ALTHOUGH WE"VE BEEN TO UR SCHOOL, WE ARE STILL YOUR GUESTS MA. must direct us to canteen de ma. so i complained to oliver and he obliged and directed us there. WAHAA. but he bring us to the NO FAN canteen. grrowls. so we decided to take a group pic. and oliver suddenly appear to take pic of us also. hahaa n we realised the canteen on the other side got fan. so we transferred there. and royston was making the programme booklet. LAST MINUTE WORK. tsk tsk. while oliver was entertaining us. daniel was still running arnd. keith too. aiya EVERYBODY. i din see xinwen though =( hahahahaha. hmms den we were brought into the hall. which still early so i decided to go toilet. so outside the hall still haf many pple. den i was telling marcus his scarf slanted den when i turned around. SIAO. thomas lee rite in front of me. den i JUMPED. and many of them were there la! den dey keep teasing me! so mean rite. he ask why nv put up item. not enough pple ma. hahahaa. erms den show began. emcees abit not prepared. and it was quite funny. LOL. coz dey dunno wad to do. but well done. though while waiting for the guest of honour and malaysian scouts to arrive they took quite long. hahaha.

okie hold on while i get the programme booklet.

rite. so the theme is ~~PAST~~ PRESENT PHUTURE.

determined to win the best supporting i cheered myself hoarse. growls- and the problem is we still never win. STUPID TERRY!

1) so we did alibaba cheer for opening cheer.

2) den there was the sec 2 item. and i was looking out for xinwen. he appeared during PRESENT as an AH BENG. he talked like one walked like one squat like one dressed like one looked like one. AIYO ah beng soh. hahaha it was very funny their whole skit. i really enjoyed myself. and i keep cheering for xinwen which terry noticed BLEAHS cannot arh hahahaha. oh wells. WELL DONE.

3) got game. DANCE DANCE REVOLUTION. this is it. 6 pairs of scouts and guides. 2 elimination round. cedar sent up 2 guides. and the last two pair was CEDAR GUIDES and some 2 scouts one from hwa chong institution the other im not very sure. BATTLE within the troop wad is this. or can i say our guides can dance? LOL must be thos case la. in the end verena won. but shi han dun sad. it was great jobs done. CEDAR only leh. not st nicks hors. haha. bleh. bet they had a hard time deciding.

4) den there was st nicks item. guest item. only item. so the award they get for it was some appreciation shit. hmpf. so dey got 2 awards like FINE. they did cheerleading. please la. it was like south division day before this gangshow la. and my guides took part in the cheerleading competition. and we emerged champion. so we should be the one doing cheerleading. STUPID. but since we decided not to put up an item. blahh. okie so we cheered for them too. hahaha. it was not well done because dey were wearing denim skirts wif probably no shorts underneath. their actions couldnt have been big if not it would be a free show for the guys.

in the meantime. daniel and oliver were in front of us. sometimes taking the performers. sometimes taking the audience. yes dey keep trying to take pic of those who shunned the camera. like the cedar guides. SO IRRITATING RITE.

5) there was a piano recital by alex. i met him at our combine before. but din really talked. he performed some final fantasy song and some classical. very nice. well done. seeing his fingers moved amazed me. JIA YOU! hahahaha. nan de see guy play piano the last guy i saw playing piano before he did was JAY at his own concert wheeee. so mesmerizing i noticed ((:

6) den there was the interlude. wah piangs. turned out the food only during interlude haf only. hahaha. we din actually planned to eat. only wan go toilet ma. oh rite i saw my pri sch fren shaun. hahaha. many tings happened. everybdoy started bullying me for some reason.

7) after like some 20 minutes. there was the sec 1 skit. rather lame because i din noe anyone. and there was YODA! so cute k. look so real. and i hear xinwen up there being noisy. lol.

8) game 2 came. and it was some joke telling. each troop supposed to send a representative up to say jokes. so funny. each troop has 1 minute. it ws not funny jokes they said it was LAME. lol. but it took up alot of time. u noe the whole gangshow 10++ den end. like woah! okie so we sent up our sec 2. shaun represented his troop. nicktan represented acsb. and got other school. dey let the malaysian scouts win. naturally *winks

9) then was the sec 3 skit ronnie yeo and julie yeh. many of the sec 3s i noe acting. gavin was narrator. shariff was some cross dresser who took part in a match making show. kevin and terry were two of the contestant. terry was this macho man who was the show's winner because shariff's "mother" preferred strong and macho terry to penniless kevin. lol. but turned out kevin was together wif shariff. and dey hugged. many sweet nothing that made our hair stood. acts of disgusting stuff. geeee. but it was nice over all. there was one part TERRY was walking funnily. damn cute. but den again. IT WAS HIM WHO MADE US LOST THE BEST SUPPORTING BIASEDNESS! gee.

10) errs. magic show by SIR KHONG los. haha. i cheered for him too. in fact i cheered for every segment so i haf no voice now! it was so amazing. it was so -idunnohowtodescribe- but it made me happy his acts. v cute one leh. his actions. v humorous very funny. verry nice correct le la. hahaha. so he did many acts. was it better to have us at the front so that he can haf someone to eye contact wif for confidence ratehr than looking in blank air wif no sense of assurance? i dunno leh. den after some trickk he asked how was it. so casually i said lousy. i dunno how he heard it. den he replied. WAD LOUSY? i was shit. haha was i tt loud. den after tt he looked into our direction and asked for some colour. suddenly rainbow dunno got colour. mind was in a blank. seriously. i wanted to say orange. MY FAVOURITE COLOUR ma. but i scared not inside. haha so i wanted to say yellow. and wanru was trying to say BLUE. so i said yellow but SIR said huh? so i was like tinking issit wrong. i decided to follow wanru and say BLUE and he heard but he say no blue only got yelllow. SO IRRITATING RITE. and he did some snow flake trick. seeing the tissue scatter in the air. i was dumbfounded. it was definitely someitng i cant do. just wad is magic. can anybody explain to me? deceptions? oh wells. so the show ended like tt.

11) PRIZE PRESENTATION. scouts school get this vase wif leaf but girl school got flower. wheee. den early bird went to st margs. BEST SUPPORTING OBVIOUSLY WENT TO ST NICKS. wanru said simon had this certain reluctance to say out the name. thanks to terry! but many of them wanted cedar to win. dey said it. after tt appreciation award to st nick as well. my heart sank. wo xiang wei zhe nu tong jun de sheng ya hua shang yi ge wan mei de ju dian. but i guess i just cant. who call is TERRY decide. growls- so was ~~really disappointed unhappy sad angry~~. wadeva. i tink mr lau saw. den i was like smile. and went out whacking and screaming at alot of the barker scouts. sorry. just. ya. never mind. best supporting means alot to us.

so we dunno whether to wait for them or wad but we just left for newton anyway. blahhs.

okie see many pple bully me.

a) glen chee was going on and on about how thomas lee wanted to stalk me. when it was already freaking me out. STUPID HORSEY stupid stupid.

b) thow xin who just left us there on our own. and he keep saying wad wait i complain to manel. AHAHAH. and he helped me get a drink. thanks la. still he bullied me. i dun care. >.<>

c) oliver who keep threatening us wif camera! grrr.

d) marcus who piled loads of pasta on my plate without me knowing. but i gave alot to terry. hahah. nick tan was his accomplice!

e) keith who refused to help me take drink.

f) andrew ang also. he say i v mean give him tissue treat him like rubbish bin. BUT IT"S CLEAN DE FROM THEIR REFRESHMENTS THERE TAKE DE. too many so give him one to wipe perspiration but he so mean.

g) jared and keith again who insisted on wad random bag check. rubbish arh. hahahaa. i noe it was for fun. bleahs.

h) everybdoy who asked me to stop squeaking. problem is if i dun squeak they cant hear me and i cant talk! haha

i) the pple who played graduation coz it made me cry.

okie thanks to everybdoy who help me take drink look for xinwen, or wadsoever. thanks!
lol.

ya so i wanted to look for xinwen so like 3 messages went into the walkie talkie to look for him. another two to say i lost my voice i nid a drink. -.-

den den i saw xinwen from a dist and ran to him. and wanru came after me. he was serving food. HAHAHHA. bleahs. and mr chay was saying oh so u are the two whom dey often spoke about.-.- den introduced wanru and myself. so throw face!

i saw daniel running around during interlude. but he said he wanted to look for us but met the malaysian scouts. lol. bleahs! he arh. alot of rubbish one. hahahhaa. lalalala. i dao-ed him 3/4 the time. muahaha. but he never wear his tie ytd. hahaa.

woot v long entry. enough le.

today.
woke up in the afternoon again. i slept at 3am ma. hhaha. den came online talked a while went to read my harry potter. finished the book finally. i cried. badly. as bad as when i lost him. it's only a book u mite say. a book that touched my soft spot. emotional. PUIII and so here ia m. hahaha. wif homework all undone. wheeee.

failed alot of test. sighs. prelims coming le leh. argh. f.

infatuatedwithyouprobably.
whatdoyoufeeltowardsme.
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weekly post

2005-07-16T22:19:00.000+08:00

so here's my post of the week.

everyday. HSL week. recess and after school. go sec 1 and 3s sell food. den ~~BARGAINING~~ is so fun. even though it's only 10 cents. but it's the PROCESS that matters ma. wheeee. giam siap gui. and also the HEAD PREFECTS ELECTION. so mcuh about democracy. blahhs. so the campaigns and stuff. SINING I WILL SUPPORT YOU NO MATTER WAD! x)) there was the frens part den the speech. and the question and answer. duno how to say also. wad if she ends up wif nothing. blahhs. cannot be de la.

tests. had english essay. amaths test on kinematics, i have to study myself. coz i ponned the lesson on it. puii. surprise emaths test on probability. blahhs. chemistry take back only got 19/40 i still fail chem. SHIT la. history? ya. lol

SCHOOOOL. almost everyday. english was doing essay outlines and oral. and we got more and more homework due on monday! LTB --> lizah the bitch. LOL. somebody told me about it. it's like so funny? lol. chinese. was ok la. shang ke. and go comp lab. btu she say if monday still no ban yue ji den she will FLARE UP. boo. better do tml. lol. amaths. siao siao one la. she's teaching and teaching and doesnt pause. rushing as if to catch a train or sumting. u dunno how to do she scream u try but don wrong still scream. call me lucky or wad. so many pple nv do den kena caught and must stand. btu she just din check mine. BLEAHS. stupid lum lum. used to like her. but i dunno why the change in her attitude? or sumting. STUPID CEDAR TEACHERS la. booo. e maths was ok. had a spring test but heck. started on matrices. kinda easy. i like easy chapters. wheeee! physics. errs. not much as usual los. start doing some homework le. wheeee. she booked us for EVERY jogging lesson which means we no nid to jog at all this term like WHEEEE? lol. chemistry. sucked like fuck la. kns. i so hate chem. as if not passing at all is not bad enough. but i like practicals. heh. geog. BORING. but wadeva la. history. i keep dozing off during hist. issit bad or bad?

monday.
i cant remember wad happened. i tink i went out wif mingjie? haha. really cannot remember.

tuesday.
after school i went out wif wanru jared and xinwen to study at a mac. i duno where's that place called. serene centre? issit? i tink so la. supposed to study wif wanling and xinli. but they all disappear.so ask wanru if i can join. den cab to j8 and take bus wif her den change again. when school has 2 freaking direct bus there. >.<> hurhur.

wednesday.
supposed to stay back do item but postponed to friday. and i also cannot remember wad happen? i tink i went out wif mingjie again x)) and my new found friends - kiat and table zero. (((: die. im having SHORT TERM MEMORY. ic ant even remember things a week back. saturated brain. kns. i tink we went to junction 8 supposedly to study. hmm. den we ate at food junction. after i left. i read a msg from zhuangyong asking is that you. means he's there. and he spotted em first again! he was like sitting next and in front of me. who call cat high all wearing shorts. lol. not much attraction. so i din really pay attention to them. din expect him to be like there la. he spotted me first for SO many times. like SO NOT FAIR. because cedaR uniform is more easy to spot! hurhur >.< he want me to say cat high pple v shuai. pukes* OH OH OH and we had PE. rollerbladed in the outdoor volleyball court because another class playing basketball. FUn. learnt how to rollerblade back wards. LOL

thursday.
hmms. we had physics remedial and we did another practical. kinda fast. lol. first to finish again! belahs. den we walk to guides board to check if i haf letter. but dun haf so walk to canteen. bernice waiting for km again. hahaa. den sit there v long. den see the guides talked to them den went back to bernice. den kiat came. jessica khong and fren was aiming a tennis ball at kiat. and they missed. they try again. it flew rite past kiat's hair and hit bernice on her HEAD! like ouch. den after like 3 seconds of retardation rite. den she stared at her wif anger ive never seen before. but she looks beng-ish? i dunno why. very ah beng wanna fight look. and shouted what did she do that for. apparently this time. she was so pissed liek perhaps 100 times more than her usual PMS which was already very very scary can! 2 years and ive never seen her like this =X and then i ask km faster come back. den km say ber dun like pple to hit her head she will cry de. me being me. i went to push her head and say cry la. after like another 4 seconds of retardation - she was still ssmiling- but after the retardation she shoved the two bags in front of her into me and scream "~~zen yang la~~" phew. it totally freaked me out and ~~I WAS SO SCARED~~ k. she never scold me before de ma =(( so sad k den km dragged her away den when she coming back. i raised my hands and flashed her a "SORRY" -actually it was to block me from looking at her- scared ma x( hmms. den km say it shud be ber apologize haha. den she took the paper and flash it to me x)) and all's fine again. LOL. bleahs. wheeeeeee. and ive been broadcasting her acts of mu-laohu-ism HURHUR!

friday.
miss chng came in in the second period taking over e maths. den she say many teachers complain we very noisy or everytime slp in class. den she say she going to change seats and she just did. din even give us time to prepare. it wasnt easy for us to adapt to the ~~present~~ arrangement. and NOW SHE HAS TO BREAK ME AND BERNICE UP! hwo could she la. and we were like the first few. kns. stupid miss chng. cannot believe she's going to be teh one writing testimonials for us! urgh! im sitting wif yiting. haha. not bad rite. she's damn stupid. it used to be my whole clique except me yunqian and ariana on the rite side. but now she even moved me and ariana to the right side. STUPID. we are like going to be freaking noisy? and manel and gladys they all also sit wif us. though there was also corine. manel sit wif her confirm no common topic i dunno how they are going to freaking communicate or how im going to do gruop work! like eeks! oh wells. so manel was throwing her usual tantrums la. den meiru had to sit wif vivian she also kinda buay song. suchen and minghui. haha kena break up even though dey tried to pretend they are v studious. lol. FAILED ATTEMPT. fiona had to sit wif sandhya which she die die also dun wan so they sat separately. den yumei sat at the place that sandhya sat at and she ask pamela who was seated at her seat if she want to change table and chair because she dun wan to sit sandhya's like ~~SO MEAN AND RACIST~~ omg. actually she quite poor ting. den fiona went to tell miss chng she dun wan sit wif sandhya during reading period. den miss chng ask yunqian who was sitting in front of them fi she mind sitting with sandhya -who was already at one corner of the class with only 3 pple around her. AND yunqian being the monitress obviously cannot say no. because she's the monitress she's supposed to be ok wif everybody. SO POOR TING RITE. she like going to cry like tt. sighs. stupid miss chng. she anyhow switch one los. she only say ok u go there and u come here. BRAINLESS k.shirlyn sitting wif sara v pooor ting! lol and loads more la. den manel requested to noe who complained miss chng say WHY MUST U ALWAYS ASK? but why cant we noe? siao one. den she realised that she did soemting wrong by putting me there and tried to change again. this time i heard manel say wad's wrong wif huiyen's seat. haha. den i say no. so miss chng nv change also. den in the middle of ALL of us was corine. so i ask manel change seat wif her discreetly so tt she can be like next to all of us? den corine and her change openly. miss chng ask why u all change place i dun wan manel there etc etc. den corine straight away say she wan to change one. liek WAD THE. shit u la. bleahs! xPpPp nvm we'll be fine. and NOISIER than usual but TOO BAD. den our class the screen on the left side of the classroom but at an angle la. but the left side got the stupid sun. so miss chng wan the whole calss to shift to the rite including the most rite column who already has difficulty looking at the screen. so yanyi suggested moving to the centre. den miss chng say dun tell her wad to do. and dey kinda argued. and miss chng talked about our attitude tone and position.she even compared us to neighbourhood pple. and den she say she handle them before and can handle us also. she also said wad other class can change seats everyday why we cannot. wad an extreme statement. EVERYDAY. like real la. so reading we were late but who cares we din even bother running back to clas we showed her attitude also at chemistry lesson combined after reading. we are the most attitude class pple la. she tried marking attendance during reading lesson to see who late *rolls eyes* den she scold again. we used to be able to walk about the class freely as and when we like. now she say every move we make we must ask her for permission. so all of us were like asking "miss chng can we go get our newsweek from teh cupboard" and must stand up must raise hand. liek wadeva. we are not kids anymore. she shud have known better. our calss dun like to change seats. any attempts sure got objections from us de. and we will argue and show attitude de los. as if there aint enough news of 4C in the class. but someting bad. i doubt she has a fren to share all these wif. SAD. i pity u. and sandhya also. -.-'" after school. had guides. planned wad ting to perform at farewell. den got express sec 4 chinese and higher sec 3 chinese had o level listening. dismissed from the lesson before assembly like 25 minutes earlier? lol. den alot of arrangement. den went assembly. den calssroom block closed. LOL. we cannot go in and must clear our stuff so that dey can arrange the table. first time having it on a weekday. SEE guineapig year. hmpf. den we finished our meeting the listening also finish. it was on symphony 92.4 i hear the first passage den susan leong came out so faster keep. -.-"' so fun. so cheena. den went out wif ziling vivian and kiat. den meet mingjie at kovan de mac. got many cedarians there. we nv study. we talk and talk. about alot of stuff school. and primary school being prefects and stuff.s o fun. den we v agitated le ma. and excited wah. den talked about girls' stuff. ALOT OF STUFF. den i suddenly tink we talk v loudly about such stuff -cannot blame ma girl school x))- hmmm den i turned back and saw this guy laughing sheepishly to himself face totally red and looks liek a ~~TIKO~~. really. i ask kiat see. den she say eh sit properly everybody. and wah everybody just close legs and stuff. den all of us keep looking at him. and he keep looking. den it's like damn scary. ebcause we are at a corner. he has the typical disgusting faggot rapist biantai and pervertish kind of HUAI REN LOOK! like omg! grrr. den we nearly informed the mac pple and we called many pple and i prepared my penknifes. den he keep smiling. v scary k. den he left. and kiat say he sitting at the coffeeshop there. like !!!!!!!!!!!! pui. we were so scared he will appear again. and we started worrying. coz kovan a lot of stalkers. hmm so we left and when we were going back I SAW SOME GUY WEARING RED AND JEANS AND ASK IF THAT WAS HIM AND KIAT SAY YES>. omg scary. ~~we ran away k~~. and many pple look at us like we are ~~crazy~~. unwanted attention from our -blue and grey- uniform sighs. went home at 10 plus.

saturday.
supposed to meet xinwen wanru and wanling to study at airport. but xinwen and i dun feel like going so we pangsehed and xinwen's suppsoed to go movie wif keith he ask me go but i dun wan. in the end many other scouts were wif them. lol. i too lazy to go out le. din even help me bro go collect harry potter new book. he early early went on his own le. lol. he say not bad. he's 3/4 through. i hope he faster finish reading. lol. i was damn lazy today la. did a bit of homework. hahaa. mornign damn funny. i heard a lot of noise outside my room. den i check phone 5 plus still got time to slp a while before gonig to "school" so i continue to slp den check again. and it was 6.40 i jumped out of bed. reached the door and was about to scream at my mother why nv wake me up when i realised it was a saturday and went back to slp until 1. U SEE HOW MUCH I MISS SCHOOL? =X like real. lol. had dinner and now online.

okie quite long entry. cant really remember loads of stuff. puii. ok nites. and see u pple next week. *hugs arica tightly* i did and i will wave each time i see u =X ilu too x))

finally

2005-07-10T12:53:00.000+08:00

it's so tough to keep this blog going ever since school started. either busy or lazy. sians. lol. but like wad many have already wrote in their blog. how many people would actually read about ur life? well u see. when everyone's busy mugging. and u are the only one still updating ur blog. u ought to be sorry. because EVERYBODY'S STUDYING! f la. u see. ~~prelim's in 6 weeks~~. x(( and i have not settled down. still playing still slacking. ~~fuck me~~. booo. ok so 1 week passed without me updating about anyting. lol. who cares.

last sunday.
woke up kinda early. met a few other guides. we were in our guides u. going to be GUARD OF HONOUR. and well. we go there den change shoe coz mdm faridah say the person v strict one. and it turned out to be true. u see arh. our shoes must be WHITE but kcpss pple got BLACK boots. damn. and that MISS HASNA ALSAGOFF izzit? i tink so. this hasna person said CEDAR GIRLS IT"S HIGH TIME U PPLE GET MARCHING BOOTS. fuck la. u tink we dun wan izzit. kns. u tink we wan to lose to kcpss? CEDAR GUIDES RAWKS K. and apparently my skirt was above knee length which was not supposed to. den i pull down la! to reach knee length. KNS AGAIN. den she say dun wan any HIPSTER SKIRT. and mdm faridah got to noe about it. haha throw face. den all our hair either too short to tie up but over collar or pony tail is short short kind. PLEASE LA. we are not like them wif LONG LONG HAIR THAT CAN BE PLAITED ok. so we got scolded for having ponytail. f. den she say she dun wan see any bulges. obviously our ponytail will rite. den she help me adjust. wah lau pull until my ponytail drop. sai. heng she nv see. and after v v v long. u noe cedar guides stand until v zai seldom tok look to the front. kcpss de COMPANY LEADER taking pictures. moving arnd. sai la. den those pple there keep asking us dun so serious. BUT IT"S A SERIOUS EVENT RITE. fuck again. lol. so we went there to stand until guest of honour, our first lady to arrive and we are dismissed. SHIT THEM. but it's ok. because we get a treat from mdm faridah. FISH AND CO on her pay day. wheee. so after tt we went to drink -according to him- overpriced coffee and starbucks at wheelock place. bought coffee. den that day keep msging him ma. den he say he come and find me. i was feeling kinda happy.but excited coz tings will be quite awkward ma. LOL. somemore i in guides u! lol. so waited. den he say he arrive le. but SHY to go in. because many guides and many he dunno one. so i dragged wanru out wif me. den met him. den we talked. lol. it was so nice. den wanru keep trying to escape to leave us alone. but i din allow. shy ma. den ask him walk back wif us. but he v shy to go in. so he walked away first. den i went wif the guides to kino. while he go wisma. lol. after tt ask him wan meet anot. den he say ok. but upon seeing wanling. a stranger to him. lol he zao away. so me and wanru went amk. i duno is he nv see me or wad. so he just walked away. was pretty sad. so dragged wanru to the playground at the park where we always go. lol. den sank into depression. den suddenly wanru say let's go to the other playground. den went and HE WAS THERE. thanks wanru. lol. thank you so much. lol. the day ended well. for the first time after so long ((:

monday.
no school youth day. stayed home and babysitted my 5 year-old cousin, my sisters and her frens who are here to do project. and guess wad. i have to bring them out for lunch. so holding on to my cousin, and 5 others kids following behind me. and i have to see that they cross the road safely, we arrived at MACDONALDS. and my sister quarrel wif the frens. kns. den i hafta entertain them. den alot of tings to do. KIDS ARE SO TROUBLESOME. haha. ask themw ad to eat say anyting. im sure they got someting tt dey wan to eat de los. boo. but who cares. LOL.

tuesday. wednesday. thursday. friday

u see got school. and school is always boring. i had a BIG BIG SILVERFISH i tink. in my test tube which have not been open for like more than a month. lying in school. EEKS. damn big ok. it's like i tink 3 cm. SUPER SCARY. and ~~we killed it wif acid~~. during chemistry. under miss chng's order. wheee. a maths just sucked. because before the holidays i ponned important lessons of a maths by not attending school. and now i just totally cant understand any freaking ting. and now vectors start. SUCKY TOO! because vectors just sucked. bahhhh!.>.<>prelims is 6 weeks, booo. got chem test. mcq but i tink i will still fail. ive nv passed chem! grrrr. i passed last week's physics test. wheee. geog was RUSHING. she started revision. so i failed my geog test by half mark coz i nv study at all. sai sai sai. but if i study will i pass? i dunno. u see arh settlements she spent 2 lessons talking about it and a test on the 3rd lesson. and now population? after going thru the test on settlements, 20 minutes on population revision and a test TOMORROW. later study. boo. i will k. got loads of time. LOL. so we had pe on wed. ROLLERBLADING ROCKS. when miss poon's classes are running and busy conditioning so that they are healthy and thus be able to study. WAD LAME LOGIC get a life miss poon. and mr chan chee kiang's classes playing volleyball. the cca in charge is him. LOL. so our new pe teacher MR NERD CHAN. lol let us rollerblade. wheeee! den on thursday eunice brought her camera. adn we took loads of pictures. me and bernice. LOl. wheee. and manel. we took a ~~scandalous~~ pic. bernice in middle, me and manel on each side trying to kiss her. Awwwwww. i hope karmun dun read this. LOL. shhhhhhhhh. and so i also told u that sale of NEW pe tshirt is on friday! but i forgot to bring money when i reminded pple on thursday. stupid me. so gladys they all scream about the sale and i was like SHIT. so went arnd trying to borrow money. and siru from 4A lent me $20 - each cost $9.50 and im buying one for myself and one for sephine - ahaha. ran down. mingjie also forget bring money. ask me help her borrow from gladys but when i reach first level empty corridor WOAH MANY PPLE THERE ALREADY. and gladys lent her money out already! arghh. so i saw miss ng bee sun and asked if she brought her wallet. she say no. den she was talking to nerd chan. den he was holding onto his wallet. so i went " MR CHAN. I SEE U"VE GOT YOUR WALLET. CAN U LEND ME $10?" and he said "for wad" me " BUY PE TEE SHIRT LA" was like v scared no stock le. KIASU ma. we were like first few? LOl. dun care. so he fished out a $10 note and passed it to me. den i stood on the bench. and screamed in to manel who was at the front. and i got my shirt pretty soon. LOL. den dragged bernice to find nerd chan at the track wif me. haha darren chin was there ma. i thanked chan. den chatted wif chin whom i nv see for 2 weeks. LOl. talk a lot la. like frens long time no see. alot of tings tok. den got to noe alot of ting. he v mean leH! lol. den i bully him. den chan chee kiang say eh u dun bully my teacher. den i was like mr chan i nv hors! lol. ask chin why he's back he say he pro ma pass the test. means he got A. GOOD Los. lOL. oh wells. dne i ask chin wad time coz got reading ma den he say hei dian bai dian yi dian dian. grrr. irritating so i ask chan ck wad time he say bai dian hei dian liang dian dian. U SEE pe teachers are so irritating. LOL. so ran back. err. den after sch got sec 4 meeting for future leaders. loads of tings happen. but all i wan to say is PATROL LEADERS ARE THE MOST IMPORTANT according to mdm faridah! wheee. oh anyway. so the teachers are like rushing thru stuff like they are running out of time. and half of the time i am not paying attention but dreaming away. so i dun understand load of stuff. alamak. WAKE UP HUIYEN*slaps*. boo. hmmm. den went to play badminton wif yq val huii emm clara sandra. haha played for a few hours. and now my arm's aching butt's aching WHOLE BODY ACHING. >.<>

saturday.
woke up early to go sch. returning saint andrews spars to them like 6 weeks after our cf? LOL. doii. so yq was earliest though 10 minutes after our meeting time. i arrived 10 minutes after her and val 10 minute after me. den see a few sec 1s dey must be back to prepare for our farewell item. in like 20 days? my manitO! grrr. haven write to her. ok will write to her. hmm den ask sec 1 help us move out. so i said sec 1s. den dey ran away. i walked towards them i heard them saying they will scold us one. MADNESS i wun. but it reminds me of my sec 1 when i run away whenever i see a sec 4. haha. our batch so many tings happen. hwo we make our seniors our idol. when charlene got hospitalised for dengue fever, we bought a HUGE basket of many kinds of FRUITS and went there to visit her even though we have exams. LOL. den we also went to her hse when she was discharged to check her out. haha. den she invited us into her hse. and ordered pizza for us! wheee. den came sandra's birthday where we bought her a cake. lol. those were the days. we even made our own presents for THE WHOLE SEC 4 can. this group of us. LOL. stayed up somemore. will it happen to us? hmm. LOL. ok back to the sec 1s. so i asked them to gather every sec 1 and go to the back of the canteen. den while we were moving the spars, yunqian touched a slimy black lizard -how yucky can tt be- on the spar and SCREAMed. she wanted to chop off her hands sia.eeks. it does suck. but i tried to act calm. because it wasnt me who touched it. so i continued moving the spars. and hitting on the ground, so that sec 1 wun be so scared to hold it. haha. sense of assurance. lol. thanks to them. we nid not do alot of stuff. and den i decided to check my msg. 2 missed calls 2 msg. chenya say the father come but nv see anybody. we were at the back of the canteen u see. den the second one was. the guard dun allow him into the sch compound and he's leaving in 2 minutes. den me and val ran out. phew. he was about to leave le. den we caught up wif his lorry. den the guard says no letter in black and white, he is not allowed to enter or transport anyting out. f. guides teachers are not arnd. so i went to get miss agnes leong. A BIG THANK YOU TO HER. she went out help us tell the guy den we write letter she sign. den monday mrs woo must go acknowledge. ok. lol. settle. den yunqian say home econs block a lot of spars. i was like wtf. so we walked there. the stupid painters, they koped the spars from the back of the canteen where they put their stuff also. and used it to keep the mats down while they are painting. DANGER KEEP OUT. but still, we entered the cordoned off area and picked up the spars. SO MANY OF THEM. esp the long ones. den got one painter from upstairs shout down OEI CANNOT TAKE AWAY WE PAINTING. den i was like THIS IS OURS AND WE BORROWED IT FROM OTHER SCHOOL AND WE ARE RETURNING IT NOW. so he said ok. den i hear the spars being thrown back. i turned arnd. another stupid painter was dumping the wood back. me and val went OEI. this is ours. u leave it alone. he say he nid it. we were like we nid to return it. den he like wan beat us like tt. BEWARE OK. wait i complain to ur foreman. u steal our tings. taking without permission! sai. lol. turns out the painter's company is HIS uncle's? lol. bleh. den went to sa. directed her dad there. lol. den 3 scouts come and help us. the rest? playing games. SAI. lol. den we went off. val go emm hse eat. me n yq go tp. den we talk and went home. den i nv bathe den slp. until evening. den bathe get ready go ENERGY CONCERT! wheeee. but wif my cousin. i shy to high. den see alot of cedarians, limweii felicia and frens were 4 rows behind me. i was at row 21. den verena shireen were the higher part. they haave frens at row 1 ARHHHHHHH so in front. grrr. den a sec 1 guide was next to my cousin. lol. she must tink he's my stead or someting. BUT no k. LOl. hmmm wasnt high in the first part. just sat down and listened. everybdoy in front stood i cant see anyting. but i was afraid to stand. wait my cousin say i throw face or wad. den the sec1 dun dare also. lol/ until second part. limw ei came to find me. den i went to join them. was high la! wheeeeee. niunai stripped ok. HOT BODY wheee. but the encore was a we are family song. LOL and dey dressed in many races costume. overall NICE. lol. den went off. my sister went NE SHOW so parents came to fetch me as well. heard one of the parachuters landed and nv stand. injured and loads of paramedics. POOR TING! lol. talked to him from meeting my cousin till concert start. den end of concert until i enter the car. den after bathing until arnd 2. wheeee. so long nv hear his voice. LOl. he had loads of stuff for dinner while i had none k. grr he ate crabs lobsters chicken abalone all he ownself cook. SO PRO. lol.

sunday.
online los. update los. 1 hour to type this whole entry. going to study. dun tink coming back online. lol. tomorrow school reopens. looking forward to wed. ROLLERBLADING AGAIN! wheee.

e v e r y t h i n g will be okay in the end, if things are not ,it is not the e n d so is everyting ok? are things finally coming to an end? i dun wan to start messaging u. i want u to start messaging me. and u did. finally. yesterday. ((: can i meet u again? zong jue de ni zai bu li wo. zong jue de ni bu zai guan xin wo. zong jue de ni shuo ai wo dou shi pian wo de. mei you wo de shi jie ni hui bi jiao hao guo? bi jiao zi you ma? mei you wo de shi jie ni shi bu shi jue de bi jiao qing song? mei you kong zhi ni. ni hui zhao gu zi ji ma? wo chen wei le ni de yi ge fu dan le ma? when will u be ready to tell me everyting? as long as u dun hurt me again. im willing to hear anyting u say.

ipromiseiwillneverleaveyouagain.andihopeyouwilldothesame. ilu* ((:

slacked

2005-07-02T22:46:00.000+08:00

as usual. slacked at home. woke up in the afternoon 1/3 of the day gone. LOL. did 2 hours plus of a maths. other school prelim paper. today is RAFFLES GIRLS. woot. haha. some questions nid more time ((:

okie anyway now must go prepare for tml's guard of honours.
nid NEW CRISP WHITE SHOE. and nid to bring beret (HAT) >.< oh wells. den now resewing the badges to standardize. the person checking v v v v scary one leh. hope my skirt pass. BLEAHS. anyway rite. haven polish badge. nid 4finger high socks ARHH. im off.

-poof-

toking to him on da phone in 12 minutes tiem. x))

tired_______

2005-07-01T23:37:00.000+08:00

how many pple actually read my blog. i also dunno. >.<

it's only the first week of term 3. and im very very very ~~TIRED~~ of school le. sighs. is this how everybody feel or is it only me? shouldn't we cherish the last term we haf in school. how much time do we still have with everybody. i really dun wan to leave cedar. this place is so filled with memories. where i grow up in. the environment where we bond as one. gahhh. lalala. okie. nvm. suan le. maybe i just nidta go back to feeling tired at 10. so tt i'll be more attentive. CRUCIAL PERIOD K. must start studying le. wheeee. tml tml tml. do maths. PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT. trust me. for maths it's really like tt. ur efforts really pay off. been there done that ((:

so today i climbed out of bed unreluctantly again. really dun wan go school. or at least slp a little longer. but i cant if not i'll be very late. so i couldn't keep my eyes open on the toilet bowl. -this reminds me of a joke the sec 2s said today. "why did tigger and piglet look into the toiletbowl. answer: because dey are looking for POO? or poooh hehe"- damn funny la. it took me a while to register it in though. i noe abit slow. BUT. tt's not the usual me de los. ok so i left home at 7.02. which means i missed the bus i supposed to take le. 7.07 den i board the bus. how to reach sch by 7.20? bahh. den 7.17 i was near sch den see bernice and km still STROLLING CAN. but they are pmsing. saii. lol. both so fierce i also scared. walk so slow some more i more scared. i dun wan to walk in the aisle when everyone is standing at attention and all teachers looking at u. SO PAISEH CAN.='_'= people shy cannot arh. lol. so ~~WE HAD TO RAN IN~~. because we were darn late. tt 2 la walk so slow. lol

den today is NCC day. haha got boots big deal la. >.<>WE STILL RAWK. bleahs cedar guides rawk my world man! geee. hehe oh den halfway through mari kita den we heard a loud thud. so after the whole ting we discussed and concluded someone fainted and bang to fall out. den when jasimah came in she say the girl fell straight face down and knocked her chin. like effing PAIN LA. ouch. she got sent to the hospital i heard. OUCH OUCH OUCH. u see. we dun get this kind of stuff in guides. AHHA bleahs.

orh den was tinking of english names. which start wif Z. pretty cool aint it? keke. ((: oh wells. anyway we started a 4c language called ZEE language. it was so funny. we spoke wif words starting in z. so bernice became zernice, jasimah became zasimah, suchen became zuchen, ming hui become zing hui, gladys became zladys, and urs truly, zui yen. sounds weird. but tt is literally. spelling must nicer. so is zuane pronounced as zuiyen very fast. lOl. oh den chem combined, miss chng showed a transparency which was kinda slanted, sing nek so all of us at the same time went zing nek. LOL so cute rite! den we luff and luff. so it was a ZEE day. hehe. im loving my class more and more. SO MUCH MORE. but yet we only have very little time together. bahhh.

so we began to get very tired and at least 3/4 of the class fell aslp after chem and before geog. no teacher ma. and v tired leh. lOL. and then heard vivien koh - new geog teacher for us. mrs ong leave us. hurhur. june le den leave us leh. means we have not much time to adapt to her method of teaching to know wad we can do to her and wad not to. our limits and stuff. she was pretty sarcastic when she first came into our class. say wad dun like to take over class like tt. grr. u tink we wan meh. she's like the 5th geog teacher we had since we were sec 3. doii and we already have like 3 pe teachers this year..- come in den see most pple slping very angry and walk out. so we tio wake up and she finally walked in with a pissed face. gee. sorry la. TIRED cannot blame. LOL. did some interesting stuff like creating questions by just given diagrams. LOL can try to spot questions for o level. cedar pretty zun in doing such stuff de. lOL. oh wells.

den we had assembly for the last period. the whole day was quite slack but sleepy de. errs. assembly was on archaeology. i tell u. it's damn cool it kinda kept me awake though i was feeling lethargic ok. it's like. this plot of land. den rite. they compared 1906 singapore map and now the map den there's this fort which went missing after the 1906 map. den dey dig and dug. and finally revealed the fort. 2m underground. den it's like reclaimation took place just next to it. the guy showed us where the sea was before and after east coast was created. LOL. on reclaimed land. wah. very interesting ok. ahhaa. shud go find out. it's liek can noe more about singapore's history. DAMN COOL can. keke. tanjong katong fort or someting. LOL.

den had guides. our last official session until passing out parade. yet patrol corner was still ~~boring~~. was giving loads of hints tt this is the last session because not allowed to tell them ma >.<>keetyeng yurong liying? LOl. at first only got me 1 sec 4. the other 2 arh. nt there. wah piangs. suppsoed to give suggestions for future patrol corners. see how lame can we be. LOL. so say the normal tings like play more games and stuff la. den the sec 2s wan more pt. lOL. see PHYSICAL TRAINING SO ROCKS CAN. hahaa. oh wells. den dey say patrol members shud haf the rite to nominate and vote for the patrol leader. even dey tink so. LOL. oh wells after tt. played games the chair moving one. wah 1st coy cheat sia. so i buay tahan le. dey wan steal our chair. so went over to 1st coy and cheated the sec 1s to move so tt i can take their chair managed to take a few before dey realised wad i was doing. doiii x)) den in the end had a fun time snatching chairs from coy 1 pple including sec 4s like sihui and huihui. wah den the whole place v chaotic. everywhere is stealing chairs. lol. got whacked a few times. screamed a few times. coz dey v noisy oso. haha den sec 1s were doing patrol posters. my patrol sec 1 nv bring anyting leh except foolscap and pencil case. though a lot more were written on the board for wad to bring! SEC 1s ARH! NEXT YEAR SEC 2 LE LEH! grrr. so as the patrol leader, i cannot stand there and do nothing. so i went to ixora saw they had colouredpaper and borrowed, den i went to err jasmine i saw a pic of a bird. den my dearest sec 1 dunno how to draw ma. den jasmine is a flower cfm no nid the bird. so i went to kope. lOL. so although it was quite simple. i ask them cut a few patterns from the magazine like stars or wad in it la. den dey did a not bad presentation. den haha. sec 4 judged. so dey said oriole not bad wors. lOL wheee. den over at the sec 2s side rite dey supposed to do a 5 page cut and paste new papers ting on teenagers. dey damn attititude one leh. got one front page is "get a life" den my patrol was "learn the rules den break it" den got "teen sex" den alot. suddenly newspaper like alot such stuff sia. AHHA. it was not bad. dey were pretty enthusiastic and funny. LOL. not bad not bad. GOT IMPROVEMENT IN ATTITUDE thumbs up! wheeee. ((:

den we picked our manito. haha. and i hereby announced the manito begin! lOL. so scary. i wonder who picked me. i picked 7 times ok! all either sec 4s or same patrol den cannot ma. i picked sihui like thrice! lOL. doiii. the bag v small den cannto stir well. NEXT TIME USE BIGGER BOX! >.< size="5">WHOEVER WHO KNOWS WHO PICKED ME, PLEASE TELL THAT PERSON TO GIMME LOADS OF STUFF. lOL. i just enjoy manito, coz i get to receive presents. hehe. i everytime give also de k. hehes. bleahs. so prepared to play.

oh den after guides go buy shoes wif yq wr and wl. coz sunday be guard of honours, only 10 cedar guides and 10 kcp guides will be present. den checking our uniform is their teachers. v fierce de. uniform must be ~~LONG~~ which mine is not, then hair must neat neat cannot use other colour hairpin, crisp white shoes, and 4 fingers above ankle socks. so apparently i go there den change into the socks n the shoes. LOL. if not look toot can bleahs. hahaha. not tt dumb. den we went to eat pastamania. SECOND TIME IN THE WEEK! can u imagine. ate pasta and pizza wif everybody. hahaa. den v full leh. den went popular and bought 2 assessment books which is other sch's prelims paper. all the good sch one. top sch. ALMOST TOP LA. lol. i tink not bad shall try it out tml. so i was lugging many bags. like i went on a shopping spree. but got books got shoes. like sec 1 buying new stuff like tt. LOL NERD. im a cool nerd wheeee. x))

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1) cedar has a NEW pe tee shirt. it's still yellow but now there's no longer a BIG BIG cedar word behind, instead it'll be replaced by a small logo which is not the school crest on the left side infront. lOl. the logo quite cool. the material is drytech kind. but v stripy de. hmm going at $9.40 and only got limited wors. haha the logo like is anyhow draw den dey anyhow explain the meaning lol. damn crap. but super cool. until we going to leave then got new one. but still. i'll buy one. oh ya there's no buttons for the new one. but miss poon say it's still modest. we din say it's not. freak. LOL. den sephine say she wan too. only got 586 pieces if i din remember wrongly.

2) cedar guides will be having our annual cookies sale again. like every other years, there are 3 flavours. chocolate ($8) chocolate mint ($8) and macadamia nut white choc in packet form de. ($10) yeaps. i have 3 choc and 3 mint and 2 macadamia. they taste really great and delicious. fingerlicking good can. u wun regret. but WHILE STOCKS LAST. realllly. want just contact me k. hehes. wheeee.

okie finally doen wif my blog entry. 1 hour. HAHA. doiii. go slp le.

no more news from him again x(
~~imisshim.alot.~~

physics test.

2005-06-30T22:29:00.000+08:00

today got physics test ma. den v tired. fell aslp. miss thang came to wake me up. knocked my table. boo. not like im the only one slping. >.< tired ma. den left 10 minutes. LOL. oh den found some mistakes. LOL thanks and THANKS huh. LOL.

oh. si ek fell aslp.nv reply me.make me so tired.haha

and he msg me. wheeee. but. it still became sad. arh. f. why why why. tell me why.
bahh suan le. like u said, things are not the same anymore. THANKS TO U TOO.

grrr

2005-06-29T20:59:00.000+08:00

okie today dismissed early. see class photo and cca photo. not bad not bad. lOl. im buying ALL at the largest. so cool eh. LOL. last year le ma. nvm la.

den dun wan stay in sch. v boring. and i got no physics stuff to study so pangsehed mingjie and yunqian. den went out of sch wif yumin and huiqi.

den supposed to go home after eating. as in me and huiqi. den i v sian-ed. den we walked arnd. haha. GOT PASAR MALAM ok! haha. den after a long time. we went to sit at the mrt station there look at pple walking here and there. observing every stuff. and met many cedarians and pple tt we noe. hmm. den got many weird pple.

1) a man asked me to help him take pic of him and tp mrt station coz he likes the background? so orh piang! haha

2) an auntie came after him immediately to ask where is the letterbox. which was missing from where it was supposed to be.

3) den when we were sitting down, this uncle walked past us, looked at us, den we ignored. den when i next look up becoz of some noise he was making. ok whistle but wadeva. den he was smirking. and smiling. and ~~huiqi insisted i blushed~~. BUT it's kinda scary. he's so kuku! lol. yucks.

4) den a group of beattyians i tink, were saying some stuff about cedar.

bahh. u see so many. last time got alot of siao siao one at tp de. can make frens wif ceyang. HAHA.

oh wells. tml got physics test. ALl sec 3 topics except light. and im still here blogging and not studying. SHIT la. i dun like to study. it's like 4th day of school only! =(( sighs.

hmm rollerbladed during pe. so fun. we played catching on blades. as in those who noe how to la. den end of everyting. mr chan (new pe teacher) supposed to be miss leong de! ok anyway he walk to me ask me my name say i blade quite well leh. ((: hehe. he's not AS BAD AS WE TINK HE IS. but he's got the face. SO SAD. lol. blahhh.

he messaged me.
so happy.
i was waiting for it this afternoon.
at the mrt station.
did he read my mind?
i dunno.

OH we took many pics. me and qi ((:

baoliang's bdae dinner. LOL

2005-06-28T23:46:00.000+08:00

errs. i was da last to wish daniel happy birthday and the FIRST of course ((:
hmms.
slept quite late. after talking to xinwen on the phone. im sorry u have to hear me errr. LOL. bleahs.

den today cannot wake up.
eye very tired.
bahh.
never eat breakfast
den go sch.

pia geog. write until hand pain leh!

hmm den nv go recess also. pia alot of stuff la.
finally almost all done except ~~PHYSICS~~. grr.
boring la.

hahaa!

den after sch wanru got exco meeting so must wait for her los.
den i nv eat lunch also.
wah dunno y not hungry. HAHA
hmm.
den the meeting was to decide positions and den it was kinda long.
we were late for around less than half an hour or so.

met terry keith xinwen and of coz da BOY of the day, daniel.
haha.
den we went to eat pastamania at cine.
bdae boy arrived earliest. so sorry i everytime late de x(
den xinwen dey all tot i reach le. LOL. sorry also. misunderstanding. LOL
woot broke again.
lOl.
treat him eat salad and drink. HAHA.
stilll owe xinwen and him present >.<
haha.
den walked around. walked till orchard mrt from cine den walked back all the way to ps.
den go eat cone.
sat in mac and do hw.
LOL.
den went off wif the others to take train except xinwen go take bus.
i tell u arh.
ALL the guys whacked me today except daniel. BUT he also got bully me. verbally! hmpf. v mean leh. BULLY ME CAN. daniel say tonite dun want tok to me =((

HAHA.
in the train was pretty sad.
but.
bahhh.
HAHA.
hmm. the day is happy day. WHEEEE

tml got pe. rollerblading. wheee. hehs. entry not v detailed kinda rushing off le. x)) bbyes want to see u pple again.

i held on to xinwen's hand today and keith wants to take pic. LOL.

my eye a bit weird today. IT WASNT WINKING ON PURPOSE KEITH.

((x happiie biirthday x))

2005-06-27T00:00:00.000+08:00

this goes out to DANIEL aka MEANIEaka DANIU aka TUONIAO aka GEGE

happiie happiie merry biirthday to euuuu!!! x))
birthday song coming up.

:)) happiie biirthday to you! ((:
:)) happiie biirthday to you! ((:
:)) happiie biirthday to you-u! ((:
:)) happiie biirthday to you! ((:

x)) zhu ni sheng ri kuai le. ((x
x)) zhu ni sheng ri kuai le. ((x
x)) zhu ni sheng ri kuai le-e. ((x
x)) zhu ni sheng ri kuai le. ((x

=)) lalalala la la- ((=
=)) lalalala la la- ((=
=)) lalalala la la la- ((=
=)) lalalala la la- ((=

colourful entry for you! stay happiie forever. smiles.

woot.

2005-06-26T23:24:00.000+08:00

a few days never update le. okie maybe like 1 day. haha. probably last update till i dunno when. SOON? i hope so.

cannot online too often le.
school's reopening like ~~TOMORROW.~~
and i tink got chinese fu xi ce yan.
PUIIII
i dun like school.
but i MISS my frens.
i want to hang out wif them.
but i dun like to study.
sighs.
cant i have both.
cant i keep playing?
NO I CANT!
o levels in like 100++++ days. ~~126~~.
it will be ~~higher chinese paper.~~
JIAK SAI!

so pls stop me from coming online if possible.
stop me from playing
stop me from going out.
get me to study with u.
book me now! at err. if u've got my number. LOL

hmms. was at my aunt's bbq ytd. many food. i tink eat utnil diarhhoea. second bbq of the week. but first one no food eat! ytd one is potong pasir residents party or sumting kinda fun. den stayed over. yaya! nothing much. came home today. finished up some history work. sighs. still got loads more.

tomorrow going to be very throw face. loads of clips on hair. sighs. but i dun wan cut. okie i already cut abit. to shape the ponytail. LOL. oh wells. shy shy. DUN LUFF AT ME IF U SEE ME!

sighs

2005-06-24T22:38:00.000+08:00

I STAYED HOME ALL DAY LONG!
~~means i did nothing constructive again.~~

now now.
ive got english, chinese, chemistry (dun plan to touch), 2 history essays, 3/4 series 6.
okie.
dun look at me until like that.
i know that's alot.
but sighs.

MOODLESS.

i just sent out an email.
saved it in my draft as well.
den sent.
wanted to re-read.
BUT.
it's all gone.
:((
i wrote an essay man.
probably take you a long time to read.

imissyou.ilu*

sale sale sale!

2005-06-23T23:27:00.000+08:00

so yesterday i decided to be a guai kia and not come online at nite.haha.so here i am now.

today morning wake up went to meet yunqian at somerset. was late. so i took a cab there. lazy. but money! arhhh! waste money.. *slaps myself* i need cash. grrr. anyone wan buy me wad i wan!? >.< okie. like whu will. blahhh. wadeva.

so from somerset we walked to far east where i trimmed my hair. hope sch reopen can tie. bahh. becoz the ponytail looks weird b4 cutting. before tt we ate burger king. student' meal. cheapo. LOL. hmm den cut at where shirlyn they all cut. hahaa. okie la. i guess. hmm den wah quite late le. study also cannot do much. so we went to walk walk. because rite. the auntie whu helped me cut hair say mango got sale. LOL.

so being the usual aunties. we decided to drop by to take a look. there were like SO MANY PPLE? and grabbing the clothes. den fitting rooom a lot of pple so dey just try in front of mirror. as in just wear on top of wadever they were wearing la. so desperate sia. typical singaporean. haha. quite cheap. den we walked to top shop. we saw someting tt was not bad. lol. so the two of us went into one fitting room den we try. lol. hmm. so we walked to and fro. mango and topshop. den we walked to taka go mac eat ice cream and slack. and we mustered alot alot alot of courage to go and look at ~~normal bras~~ SO THROW FACE. imagine if someone i know see me there. wah kns. SHIT. LOL.

den we walked back mango and bought 2 tops. topshop and buy 1 top. and in total. i spent $70++ there. plus all the food and cab fare and some other stuff like hair clips. $100++ =.- broke broke. dinner ask dad help me buy. LOl. oh wells. no money is like tt de.

showed my mum. she said the tops not bad x)) i dun haf bad taste de los! hmpf.

big jaryl say he was there. from morn to night. but i din see him. aiya wasted. he not wearing cap leh! lOl. he tt time chalet dun let me take it off. HMPF! oh well. LOL. bleahs. not fated. =X

he say he not going in there le. i hope so. ive lost all hope and confidence to salvage this relationship. it's really all gone. it's the end. all i can do now. is to keep all those precious and sweet memories we had together. wif all the messages deleted. i can only based on my own memory. 7 months say end den end. zhen de shi you yi dian jue. time will heal all wounds. time will make me forget u. time will make u non-existant anymore. time will delete u from my mind. time will do tt wont it?

cry no more i will. eat medicine i will not. cut i will not.
i promise.
wad contradicts the previous sentence is.
promises are meant to be broken.
((:

i wish u and her all the best.

chalet____

2005-06-22T12:41:00.000+08:00

finally i've got some life. and not so boring. whole day study or stone. HAHA. on sunday i online until about 1 plus. den go into my room den pack my stuff. wanted to finish reading 1st book of harry potter so tt can start 2nd book at chalet. but din manage to start. first time i din read at chalet ok. so i 3 plus 4 den slp. 6 plus mum wake me up go sch le. but i walk arnd the hse until going to late again. pia cab. but wait v long for 1 to be available. i booked cab summore la! den slp arnd 3 hours. damn tired. go sch. nto concentrating on physics also damn boring. den after physics go dental. dental le go tp eat. den went off to pasir ris to meet the rest at 2.

i was kinda on time. den reach le nobody. actually haf but i dunno him de. so i dunno he there. haha. den wait da jar come. den ceyang nickt jian felix besley come. THEY WERE LATE LA. den we went off to chalet le. walking in tt time see kevin. err no comments. hmmm. i was in my freaking uniform. puii dey go into the room straight away jumped onto the bed. SI GAYS.~~keep effing each other de.~~ keep gaying arnd in the chalet la. hmm watch tv played cards a lil. den ek come wif da food so they went to get. but i dun wan go coz i dun wan see him so dey leave me and da jar there. haha. den come back tt time dey come in from the connecting door say dun wan disturb -.- oh wells. den he came in i din say hi. i was totally avoiding. din look into his eyes once din look up at him once. but i can feel his presence i can see the other side of him which i haf nv seen before. den he went to the other room. den i abit not tt tensed. den dey wan go eat. so i changed out of my uniform. coz after tt dey wan play pool. hide hide hide. HAVEN 16 YET MA! cannot izzit. but nv check me la. den play wahh all of dem v pro wors. blur king [mingyi] can win alot of pple leh! hahaa. den went back to chalet arnd evening slack arnd again. gamble gamble gamble watch tv.

den bbq start le. heard amanda jasmine and clara here le. hmm den sumbody called me. so i went missing in action. walked arnd the whole chalet place. walk walk walk. den nv eat anything tt nite. blahhh. hmm den walked back chalet felix and jian say wann go swim den ask me got shorts anot. so lend him my extra fbt. HAHA he wear le damn short damn hot damn sexy wors. den he keeep complaining. v shy HAHAHA. at the pool den dey strip. porn star[ felix] de i seeee b4 online le. AHHAA. free show. den i go near them, they spray water at me den was wet la. went back chalet dey ask me i swim also arh. den i say nv. bathe le. den go out. the rest were gambling. hahaha. so i went to join them. but i nv gamble. doiii.

halfway den got big problem. for safety purposes dey shoooed us back into the room. den if really v serious all run away. where got like tt one. so we slacked in the room. ~~was a bit worried for him.wonder why i shud be. dun care him.~~ puii. den after a long while dey say everyting settled peacefully. so we continued gambling. the whole chalet i won a little la. abit only. but got win happy le. heard ceyang lose alot. pooor ting.dajar left quite early. den 12 plus besley and jian left. but jian came home early next morn LOl v early. den 1 plus nickt and clara nidta go mum come and wait outside sia!the rest pei him walk out try negotiating wif his parents but cannot. hmm so mingyi and i play vball outside! lol. so long nv play not bad. den mingyi go return e ball. i was in the room heard someone ask where was i. sum one say playing vball outside. den dey realised ball there. LOL. by this time i was out of the chalet sit by the pit to sms. den jasmine came out. SHy.me. haha anyway we tok abit den okok liao. LOL. den the rest came back ask us go in and tok. ahhaa. hmm so after all the pple left left. lanjun slp at the door dere. den mingyi isolate himself. singchang was in charge of the lights and

THERE WAS A PILLOW FIGHT!!!!!!!!

me, jasmine, ceyang, xiaoben, xiao jar. errrm.s dey keep attacking jasmine. poor ting. she kena whack utnil arh. i duno hwo to say. den everytime dey whack i go and attack the rest from behind. very tiring one. den keep running arnd den must siam here siam there. lOL. den we v noisy. security guard come and warn us.we were v v noisy obviously to get warning at a chalet. AHAH. HAHA. den after tt got a lot of false alarm. all zao to bed and pretend slp! lOL fakers! den in the middle of the nite go out find food. go cheers den go mac buy mcflurry to eat. hungry leh. den walk back room. fought a little more. den play HEART ATTACK. den xiaoben say he dunno how to play. den wah piang. dey play v not organisedly. haha den a few times bluff pple. den haha when xiaoben shout. he enjoys seeing pple siam. he keep luffing. first time play cannto blame ma. rite? HAHA den play play play sianed le. den we played badminton at 3 plus. played a while damn funny. den went in again. got one group of guys keep screaming i wan play badminton also.

4 plus. nickt and clara sneaked out of the hse to come back. by this time. err xiaojar jasmine and xiaoben kinda slp le tt kind. dey tok and play a while den really "died". hmm. den the rest of us play cards again. den play play abit tired el. everybody just squeezed on the bed. nickt came slp oso. lol. hmm. just close eyes not say slp completely. den dey went out morning. rain sia. den come back jian felix and ceyang wan go swim.

so i went wif them. expected water to be v cold raiing lhe! den ceyang jumped in. eh nto cold. jian went in too. den felix went in. HAHA. oh wells the moment he jumped him. something float up from his pocket. den a very loud "FUCK" could be heard. he jumped in wif his phone. and phone was pronounced dead immediately but sim card still working. den dry it. den went back into the pool. haha. dey spray water at me until i wet again. den dey ask me go in. dun wan la. HAH. den xiaojar and nickt wake up den dey come. dey test the water not v cold leh.s o dey went back chalet change and RAN to the pool wearing only shorts LOL. dey like v paiseh. DAMN FUNNY> i saw la. from on top. dey are like some kukus. HAHA funny funny. dey came in too. and played. before dey came ceyang and jian and felix were playing some sick game. 2 pple open leg. the 3rd dive thru. errr. everybody was having fun. DEN haha. ceyang dive thru. and errs. attacked felix there. i sit de position can see the whole process and how felix jumped! HHAA. den after tt lanjun and mingyi came say going home. but the rest managed to persuade them come swim. den dey had the push each other into water game. first person to go in was nickt. HAHA den second person dey all target felix. felix pull ceyang. den xiao jar just push ceyang in HAHA. hmm. i keep hugging lamp posts. felix v jiao hua. keep wan to push me in. hmm den dey started playing catching in the water. catch le must go to the side. can move arnd but must hold on to the wall den cannot swim but alot of cheat. HAHA. v funny also. luff until u peng tt kind. cheaters. den dey keep diving down to look at the hole where pple below can see u HAHA. hmm
den i sit by the side of the pool. whenever felix try to push me down. den i scream v loudly. soon the guards keep looking here see us. check if we were doing someting. den i sat at the metal ting. ceyang closed in on me. felix was at the back. i hugged the metal ting. ceyang grab my legs. felix held my hand and pushed me into water. arhhhh! totalllly wet. puii. hmm. after a while felix pulled me into the water. though i resisted alil. scream and scream. third time felix caught me unguarded and push me in! arhhh but going back tt time. xiao jar was by the side den i push him in. sense of achievement. wheeee. x)) wah can see so many guys half naked. FREE SHOW. a chalet worth going to. LOL

went back chalet. clara jas n xiao ben still slping. den we gamble a while more. den wake dem up go eat. haha den eating tt time clara's parents called. err. alot of tings den ceyang help them messaged mushy stuff to their parents. den parents dun believe is nick and clara type one. HAHA so want them home immediately. but nv. ben xiaojar ceyang singchang nickt me clara jas went to watch batman at tampines mall. damn sianed. i wathc b4 le. plus tired. i kinda slp at the movie. but hor the sound effects keep waking me up. i keep jumping. damn scary la! so loud for wad. piang. den the guys v concentrated but the clara and jas alot of jokes one leh. den xiaojar nidta zao. we took cab to and fro tm. my side singchang paid for us. HAHA. den went back tt time everybody say go off. haha so all of us went off except singchang la and the other side de pple. amanda went off in a cab or sumting. the rest of us went to eat some malay food.

den xiao ben and ceyang say wan go play pool. xiaojar went off ALONE hahahaha. den me jas clara jian and nickt we took 88 to pei jas. den alighted wif jas. she went off. the 4 of us took 147. din wan to take 88 very long to go tp den the tay siblings went off at their stop. den me and jian took to serangoon. den he pei me go 105 bus stop. on the way home. had many nice talks wif jas clara nickt and jian. haha. den me went home. changed to 238. HAHA took alot of bus. reach home bathed online a whlile bth. go to room KO. 7 plus 8 slp until this morning. 11 plus. still tired now.

I ENJOYED THIS YEAR'S CHALET ALOT. although it was liek totally difff from last year as in the pple. but ya i really had fun. and made a lot of new frens! wheeee. thanks for everybody who made e difference. really happy. lurve da pillow fights. love jasmine. HAHA ((:

hahaha wake up le read a msg.

kinda sad. kinda dunno wad to feel. kinda lost. kinda confused.
i wish u good luck.

sighs.
woot long entry.
i just wrote an essay
~~a colourful one. wheeee. my life is not just b l a c k and w h i t e. it is full of colours.~~

2005-06-19T23:39:00.000+08:00

hmm today had father's day dinner wif my grandpa. nice food again.
now burning songs coz ive got no mp3 le! lend to terry! so must use discman.
greedy me burn alot of songs! hahaha. bleahs! oh wells.

NOT GOING TO BLOG FOR maybe 2 DAYS!

gonna meet my doom! x((

byebye!!!!!

second entry of da day.

2005-06-18T23:20:00.000+08:00

so it continues. i went out for dinnner. suppoosed to go geyland "no signboard" seafood restaurant to eat crabs. LOL. errms dad's day celebration or so called it. oh wells. went to geylang passed by many places. was hoping to catch a few chickens in action. but. maybe father was driving too quickly. oh well reached there. the person say no place for parking and must wait 45 minutes before we can get a seat.

which means: 45 minutes to sit and 1 hour for food to come!

to wait 1 hour and 45 minutes is really too long. and intolerable esp the fact tt i din eat breakfast and lunch. so we decided. NO. we shall not wait so long to eat stupid crabs. xiaojar say he at chomp chomp eating stingray!!!!!!! >.< he's a copycat ok! oh wells. so i suggested chomp chomp newton macpherson and wadeva i can tink of. so bro said I WAN EAT CRAb. i rebuked whu say newton cannot eat crab. ok so there we were.

yummylicious delicious simply fantastic.

so this is wad i had for dinner (costing less than $60):
1) stingray! damn nice la. i love it so much i finished most of it x))
2) chilli crabs. bro finish most of this. LOL it was spicy and i was crying. BOO.
3) barbecued chicken wings. wheeee!
4) chicken satays! bro ate like half of it.
5) oyster egg.

*are u pple jealous or feeling hungry?*

wad a spread. and it's like damn cheap. WE SHUD EAT IT SOMEdAY. anybody wanna go wif me?? x))) muahahaha.

so i came home smelling like the fooood. so oily. and re-bathed. even though i bathed le den go out. less than 2 hours later i have to bathe again. wad to do! ahahha.

den i come here and sit in front of the comp le.

boring.

2005-06-18T17:36:00.000+08:00

haven been updating for the past 2 days. for the first time since this blog started. hahaha. quick update. doubt anybody's reading anyway.

thursday.
woke up kinda late n by a call from a cousin whu said he's coming over to my hse. so i got up. den cooked instant noodle and opened canned food for brunch. - breakfast and lunch. hmm. den he came over i used comp a while den he ask me let him use coz he nids it to do sumting. so i gt nth to do. bored, i went into my room and lie on my bed to listen to music. stoned and stared. apparently i fell aslp again. and i was aslp till my mum came home. and i was scolded. becoz i forgot to help my mother do the laundry which i promisd i wud on wednesday. oh wells. got scolded for hp bill too. last last bill $150 last bill $150 latest bill $130 got improvement. but still v high! im sending 1500 msg! ALOT. alamak! must restrict. but it feels weird not messaging. anyway. got my mum to buy burger king for me for dinner. ask her she eat already anot she say going aunt hse who will cook for her everyday la. BUT haha aunt called dad to say she din cook dad forgot to tell mum. so mum had no food. and becoz i forgot to help my mum do laundry. she forced me to vacuum the whole hse. even under the bed. it's so tiring ok!. i was perspiring profusely after that. and she rewarded me wif fruits. ok thanks arh! but i rather do the fruit myself and e housework urself. LOl. den went over to stay at my aunt's hse. reached at 10+. cannot blame was watching PROJECT SUPERSTAR. but no sing song one leh. booo. den bathed. waited for dad to mop floor den go. reach there. slacked. use abit of comp. aunt was making jelly. played games. and i cudden slp. nto used to it. walked in n out of da room tried slping in da living room. flipped and rolled arnd. and i only fell aslp at 6am. and woke up at 9 plus. due to sister v noisy.

friday.
as said woke up at 9 plus. without eating. walked out to potong pasir mrt. my aunt stays rite inside pp and the cake shop is rite outside. so went for a morning walk wif my cousin la. and it started raining heavily and we cant possibly run back wif da cake. so ya. took a bus. and waited for my cousin to bring the umbrellas down for us. the cake is pretty. for 5 year old kids. HAHA and when we were home. wah. loads of food. u noe kids party. so dey dun eat adult food but fried chicken wings hotdogs(which some kid said it looks like sotong becoz of the way it's cut) sotong ball onion rings. and antoher aunt came especially early to make her sushi. and they were nice. yummy. but the kids were very noisy and playing wif my cousin's toys. which he happily and proudly showed off each and everyone of hsi toys to his frens. thus depriving them of game time. den dey were running arnd the hse. POLICE AND THIEF -.- super noisy. and dey kept knocking into the poor me who was at the computer. doii. den blow cake. den dey left. and tt's only first part. den older cousin brought a group of frens over.f rom zhonghua! >.<>.< den the adults played mahjong. and me and 3 cousins set up another table and we play mahjong also. HAHA. was on a winning streak but nv bet money. hmm. den dinner was more adult food. got BROCOLLI! er chicken. den stingray like bbq tt kind damn nice. den got sushi also. den some special kind of prawn which taste nice. and loads moer. over all yummilicious.! pro aunt! hahaha. got popcorn chicken. taste like kFc's but different. is get from market de. den slack until at nite. den went home. sister down wif fever suddenly. haha. and she's now in malaysia wif another aunt. doiii!

today.
effing boring. with nothing to do. and as usual no mood to do homework. i realised i did more than nanthini? hahahaha. oh wells. came online tok to a few pple. den hp no sms. nothing else! monday going bbq. wheee. wun be updating. got sch first summore geee. will update more maybe later. if got things to update. hahaa.

barker pple are still in malaysia and wun be back till monday. when i'll be gone. ahhaha. hope dey are enjoying. though xinwen did call a few times back and ask me call him back. BUT. im playing mahjong. HAHAHA. >.< sorrry!

nil

2005-06-15T23:43:00.000+08:00

i do realise that many people actually read my blog but refused to acknowledge their presence. and that includes you emmeline. ((: SO EVERYBODY WHO'S READING MY BLOG! TAG ME!!!! >.<

went out wif xinwen again to study. did 3 quarter an essay den gege ask us go meeet him. after much persuasion, we decided to go ps to meet him and keith. den gege ate his bk meal while we went to buy tickets for batman x)) not bad a show. LOL. it was funny at some part cute at some parts and cool at another part. LOl. and when we buy finish da ticket. den we went down. i started playing wif da sauce. den daniel was asking xinwen to feel the "experiment" den i slam his hand onto the sauce. and it stinks after tt. gee. den daniel also got some of it on to the base of the cup den he touch. stinky also.

oh well den come home. xinwen's holding on to 1) my long black and hairy ting 2) my penknife 3) my movie ticket. i wan hors! READ THIS! return it all to me. x)))))

im not prepared to face everyting yet.
gimme some time.
i will overcome everyting.
i will.
if i cant change the past i will mould the future.
thanks for being there for me whoever hu noes and cared.
wanru. not to worry. i wun gif up on it so easily. gimmme time.
xinwen. thank you for ur chicken rice and drink and chips x)) ilu so. LOL. hugs. thanks for really being there. and being sad about me. thanks for toking to me. thanks for everyting
gege. sorry for worrying u. thanks for ur advice. i will try i will.

but what's done done.

i cant remove it.

it's a ~~scar~~

but it's damn NICE. x)

I AM A BITCH!

2005-06-14T11:59:00.000+08:00

oh well i kena woke up by messages and calls. den in the end went out wif xinwen to study at ikea bk. and i wonder if i'll still be going tml. ok. so we studied. did 1 essay not bad not bad it was pretty long. he was doing maths. well i took a cab there. i ate bk.dumped my 80 cents change into the bin while clearing the table.. study. walk in ikea. dinner teppanyaki. not bad not bad. but the person forget to gimme back the change. den she shortchanged me. aiya 50 cents gone.total $1.30 wasted.well.luck is not tt good today. den we walk arnd anchorpoint den say go eat mac. so aiya alot of tings happen. no mood to blog. I AM SO SORRY FOR EVERYTING. now because of me.im sad he's sad. i wonder if there are still pple whu's sad. mum cheated me home by saying dad discovered my secret and wan me home to scold me. wad the fuck la. bloody fucker.

i dunno whether to be happy to be sad to be angry to be hurt or wad. i just dunno wad to feel anymore. fine. im such a fucking bitch. im so fucking scheming. like it's my fucking fault. OK. fine everyting's my fucking fault. i shan't fucking bother you pple anymore. i am fucking hurting u all. OK. i am hurting u all. i shall fucking get out of ur lives. if tt is wad u tink. i cant fucking change it. it's your fucking mind. i just din expect all these to fucking happen. ok maybe i did. well. i am fucking hurting your fren. i will get out of his life. i will. i shall hibernate and stay in my hse till sch reopens. or maybe i shud just start rotting at home. lest i go arnd hurting pple! ive got so much to say but i cant fucking bring myself to say it. they are forgiving they are naive they are stupid HAPPY? i am such a bitch i am so despicable i am getting back at them. to you: i wan to treat u as a fren. but i guess i cant. im going to hurt u i am. u have very good frens around u. u dun need me anymore. this period of time i enjoyed myself alot. ok then again. im out to lie to u. im plotting. im the mastermind. im the lead actress. im the director. im everyting. and im myself. im so sorry about every single fucking thing tt's happening. den again. maybe im not.

W H A T E V E R R

oncebittentwiceshy.

fuck.

2005-06-13T22:24:00.000+08:00

today is a ~~fucked up~~ day.

lol.
met xinwen at ps was late by half an hour.he ask me donate $2 to his scout ting.we went to take neoprint. it was kinda awkward wif only the two of us. but it turned out not bad. he spent 190sec decorating one pic and spoiling one of them which i already decorated.so mostly da neoprints were not decorated! >.<>0! oh after eating we met daniel(his pencilcase.turned out it mite be his penknife which slit it but i din see the penknife which means it's gone!!! SORRRY!) kevin keith terry(lent him my mp3 he upload alot of songs go in wors hehe) oh well den dey pangseh-ed and i wanted to give daniel a penknife which i gotten from carrefour.it's all metal. boooo.

den we went to some ulu place in ps. got condom leh! i tink used one summore. tsk tsk. u wan make out in public nvm la i wun blame u no money get even a motel room or hotel in geyland or cannot do in ur hse. BUT clear up after u do ma! tsk tsk.

den some nus gal ask us to donate. grr

den went to watch movie cursed. it was not scary not horror. but the sound effects and suspension feel is tt. every sudden move is like WOAH. and i was comfortable in my seat x)) . oh wells. den went heeren and bought someting. den went dinner. i'll elaborate in the later part. im feeling rather sad. mum gave me $30 i spend it all

$30 - $10 top up farecard
- $5 for ytd dinner
- $15 for this week allowance i not going sch ma.

and i spent so much today i was so sad. next time bring lesser money out. grrr!

$7 - neoprint (xinwen paid $2 well it's monday.feeling rich! =(( )
$6 - dinner (actually is long john one me and wanru queue halfway xinwen msg her say he go kfc and we couldn't let him go alone so kfc we went! so ex!! )
$7 - movie (cursed)
$2 - xinwen scout ting
$2 - dontion
$3 - popcorn
$8 - heeren shopping
$9 - dinner (i treated xinwen!!)
$2 - carrefour shopping

total: $45+++

arhhhh! tt's like more than the $30 my mum gimme. was damn upset la! and just when im so upset after calculating how much i spend. the mac staff serving me offended me.!

first i went over. i ordered. can i have a FILLET-O-FISH students meal upsize and a McNUGGET students meal upsize. den xinwen say he wan change to milo so i said can u change ONE of the drinks to milo, thank you. he din even repeat my order he's supposed to ok. i wonder if he was listening to wad i say la. it was super over wad i expected the price to be. if nv change it would be $9.40 but now it's $10.60 was wondering what caused the big difference.

so now im supposed to get:
1) 1 fillet-o-fish burger
2) 1 6-piece nuggets
3) 2 large fries [everytime order upsize sure large de will dey be so stupid as to tink it's medium when mac will earn more money? so i concluded tt staff is stupid because he gave me medium!]
4) 1 medium coke
5) 1 medium milo

this is the first freaking time sumbody cant take student meals order correctly.

what i got at first was:
1) 1 mcchicken burger [which we din order u see is he paying attention? i say sack him useless]
2) 1 6-piece nuggets
3) 2 medium fries
4) 2 medium milos

fuck la. i cant take mc milo for hell sake. and i just took coke at the cinema. go home lao sai arh. kns. grrr. so firstly i told him tt i tot i said change one drink only. den he say got meh? i thought u say two. i was like freaking pissed. customers are always rite TOO BAD. u could have at least changed it to a coke rite? why too much work arh. i swear i'll complain against u. BAD SERVICE BAD ATTITUDE.grrr. oh ya for ur information it's the one at wisma. wanted to take a pic of da guy de!

den i realised. hey wrong order!

so in the end i got:
1) 1 fillet-o-fish
2) 1 6-piece mcnuggets
3) 2 medium milo like wth la!
4) 2 medium fries

LOOOGI leh!!! grrrr.
wanted to post some pictures. but grr. i haf everyting but i dunno how to >.<
got today's neoprints. HAHAA. blehas.

u noe i was so effing pissed i walked off without saying thanks because i tink he's so fucked up wif a fucked up face summore la din take a good look at his name man. and i din even bother to ask for sauce which i normally will take! (mayonaise barbecue and chilli) and wad the la! i stared at the counter at all the mac staff and was being pissed and just ate the fries plain! arhhhh! den xinwen help me go take x)) heheheh. oh well. we started taking all the mac stuff. so angry angry angry!! i wan to complain!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway now im wondering how pple can be so hypocritical. and i din say it without evidence unlike some people. xinwen would understand but wad the hell la. it's like. u wan u tell me. u dun in front of me good good behind bad and to some other bitches la. if u are jealous TELL ME. i'll keep a distance. >.<>

boring sunday.

2005-06-12T23:13:00.000+08:00

boring sunday. where i did nothing but online and watch tv.
grr.

saw sumting amusing.
a cat in a mac.
the cat got chased out.
but continued staying outside e mac.
it stands in the middle of the entrance.
when any idiot open the door and not follow in.
the cat runs in before da idiot.
how amusing.
den when dey saw tt dey let the cat in.
they gave a face.
the kind when u go gotcha face.
SO FUNNY.

and i walked to the mac and back.
coz ive got so much time >.<
coz nobody wan go out study.

grrrr!
bad day.
short entry.
wheee.

boo

2005-06-11T23:13:00.000+08:00

hmms in the end i din go to phua chu kang musical. apparently my 5 year old cousin came in the morning. when i was still slping. he came into my room and disturb me!!! arghhh! but i still slp. dun care him. den he just slp on the flooor. lol! so cute rite! hahaa. den my mama keep asking him wan go anot. wah den he say wan leh! being the kind me i decided to let him go in the end. but my sister was jealous la. she scared my mum dote on him more than her. so childish can she's already like primary five? dortss rite!

so ive been home the whole day again. which means i din do anyting today again =X not productive. slackish. ~~fuck la~~. hwo to finish my hoemwork if continue to like tt. alamak.*slaps forehead* jiawen's blog password is so lame can! grrr.

oh ya so just now xinwen ask me out for dinner den he ask me where den i say toa payoh he say ok. but actually my dad buying dinner for me le. so i said i dun wan. den he say how can like tt one. so i lied. IM SORRY. ((: forgive me wun you? x)) ilu*

ya see so little happen. my life is getting more and more boring. or izzit i cant recall anyting. arh. shud i go to da chalet. tink tink again bah! oh ya now i wan get de phone is 7270. though no mp3.
it's either 6260 wif mp3 and fm radio btu super big or 7270 wif fm radio or 6170 wif nothing. but now many pple tell me 7270 so i tink i'll go wif it. everybody's getting new phone wheeee! stupid xinwen keep saying his 6230i v nice BUT I WAN A FLIP PHONE. act zai. haha. den tink of plan. shud i get an all day freeincoming but only got 500 sms and 100 free outgoing or my current one 7pm - 7am 900 sms and 100 free outgoing. crap. dun tell me depends on whether i call more or sms more. BOTH ALSO ALOT!!!!! >.< grrr. wadeva. next time den tink. still got 15 days. lol!

pardon me for the following paragraph.forgive me for doing so.

u hell disappoint me. u fucking arsehole bloody bastard )_%*#_$)$. i dunno why i gave in to u in the past. i dunno why i trusted u so much. and believe that u stop smoking when actually i noe. i sense it. i can almost confirm it when i ____ u. but sighs. im so naive. why would this happen. i din wan to listen when everybdoy was telling me u stopped smoking. now i do. because ur frens have told me so. i hate u. i hate u. i hate u. for doing all these to me. U grrrr! i dunno wad to say also la. haf tattoo big already la. fucking idiot. i hope u get infection and die earlier. i wun cry anymore! im glad i deleted all the memories of u.

-FUCK YOU!-

airport_______airpork? muahahaa.((:

2005-06-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

today i woke up at 11 plus den read tt val huii clara pangsehing me not going airport! >.<>.< oh ya so we were at the burger king for a while den went to mac to find val and huii. den slacked there most studied until like 10pm like tt.

den we went to belt 37 to wait for them. oh ya mingjie and engkiat and felicia also there. ahhaah. doiii. hmmms. den we take plain paper. i wrote " xiaobai! welcome home! and cedar! hahaa. den saw lim kim choo there also and many other pple. we go jie ji. triple sci some pple went to thailand on a school trip. the idea was that triple science no nid study tt much during holidays. means we nid la because we lousy la. ok la wadeva los. and dey like only pay $300++ and dey take sq flight and stay in 4 s tar hotel summore wad hte hell la. must be lim kim choo.

she's so irritating! i dun like her! super biased against me one la. whole day catch my hair stand up if not skirt short if not behind hair too long. catch this catch tt. grrr! irritating la. oh ya. den we ran to catch the last train. and i ask my daddy go paya lebar fetch me. lazyy ((: bleahs. and here i am.

today din really study >.< MISS WU YUNQIAN FINALLY GOT HER FIRST HANDPHONE! tt's someting to rejoice about. now we can contact her easily. and no nid call her hse. i wonder if she'll message in class. hehe.shall message her in class though she only sits diagonally to me. and toking to her is safer than messaging her. HAHAA. wheeee. her number not v pretty de leh. quite hard to memorize >.< IM A BIG NOKIA FAN!!!

kekeke.

xinwen supposed to come after his campfire. but he went to play lan. den he say he mite come. ask us leave tt time call him to tell him dun go le. BUT. i only in my dad car den i remember. he was waiting for the train to airport =X sorrrry darling i forgot!! hahaha. paiseh arh. den tok to him until his bus come. so sorry. imagine i nv call den he go >.<SAY SORRY WHEN U ARE IN THE WRONG!!! keke. den i called him wenwen and keith was jealous of us. HAHA.

chij tp had their campfire today. they wanted to invite us to put up our item for their campfire ok! can see how good our item is la. it's like an invitation to perform. but we rejected. mdm faridah say nobody's free to go during the holidays. yunqian said her fren say ij guides jealous we can dance. x)) wheeeee. like so cute rite. oh ya. dey did flying fox also? but xinwen say it got stuck at the top ((: why are we so pro. i tink we are like damn pro. OURS DAMN PRETTY! hahahahaa. bleahs.

din see sumbody online wors. so messaged him. lol. tot sumting happen. MUAHAHA. am i KIND or am i KIND?

i dunno whether to luff or to cry___))```

2005-06-09T22:02:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY JIAWEN!!!!!!! SWEET 16 xPpPp. ~~guess i wun be able to win her but x))~~

i lost to yvonne in tagboard and friendster and handphone. i wonder why she's so fast! all jiawen's fault tell me wad my clock fast. grrrr! JIAWEN! booo x)) stay happie always.

i cant efffing go to slp ytd. 1 plus i went offline 3 plus im still awake. maybe i was still rather disturbed by everything tt's happening to me. which are caused by me. so serve me rite. well. den i went to del my whole inbox full of HIS messages and i cried harder and harder reading each and everyone of them for the last time. i had difficulty breathing i felt tt i nearly died. to another someone: i thank you for telling me more things that i shud noe. at least i got to noe more about u. thanks for helping me and giving me some advice which i may not have folllowed but still. thanks! and so i went to gallery and deleted every single picture of him too. cry and cry and cry. just cannot stop. and i just lied on my bed and try to cry myself to slp. but i felt that i din sleep at all.

i keep on waking up to change radio station to songs i have heard before and the next thing i know. is six plus le. so my mama keep waking me up. and so i hafta wake up. and i was so early tt i still took a cab to sch and the first few to reach schoool. lol. and stupid geog was so effing boring la. i was like toking to yunqian throughout the lesson updating her. hehe. den dismissed half an hour earlier at 9.30! wheeee! damn happy la. den me go dentist. VERY GOOD LEH. but i was hyper. the nurses damn good and funny and comical and GOOD LA! hehe. alot of interaction even about gals stuff. But dey cant do anything to me and i have to go back again. because i got medical history and dey nid the letter ~~FUNCTIONAL MURMUR~~ geeee. so mafan! but nvm la. den i help dem do tings while waiting for meiru. den met up wif jiawen mingjiee and yunqian den go vjc because mingjie nidta go sign admission stuff DSA la. grrrr! goood la. den we took bus but over took the stop. so we take another 1 hour bus because we decided to go back tp eat. WASTE time i was so hungry le la! den we ate pizza hut. very hua. lol. 2 pizza and many side stuff. eat until so fulll pay $8 only. LOL. cheappp.

den went to ps to meet gege xinwen wanru terry terry fren and terry's fren fren. LOL. aiya dunno la.mingjie dey all came too but dey went to starbucks and gossip! lol. wah lau some idiot. arhh nvm so scary. booo! not my fault >.< it scared some shit out of me la. geee. den went kfc and slacked wif everybody. listen songs damn nice. aiya den went home. [summarized] details no nid to noe la. XINWEN only toked to me at da end. but kena ignored lOL. who call u. mauhaaha. wheeeee. must be gege told u someting. because i just din wan to tok to u first. BLEAHS!

so everyting's ok le. reading the entry makes me cry. so touched. i read one time cry one time. I LOVE U. hhahaha. i din expect u to... hehe. he's only sec 2. dun anyhow tink. hmmm. LOl. sighs. i dunno leh. izzit really over. i tink it is. i shudden be tinking too much.

MY DAY ROCKED TODAY. just being able to see youu**

____________sighs.

2005-06-08T23:59:00.000+08:00

one problem after another. i dunno wad to say.

today i woke up at 1 pm! woaahh slp very long leh! but i dun wan to wake up to face reality. i wan to wake up thinking all that has happened is just a dream. one moment im full of hopes. the other i gave up. arhhh! ~~fuck. wadeva. i din mean to do it again. i really dun. i just cant control myself. im sorry to everybody. maybe not u maybe not u maybe not u.~~ bahh. so i woke up many msg. i was kinda hesistating to open da messages. hoping one wud be yours. there it is. but. i dunno why i felt wad i felt. den decided to meet xinli whu went sch to check if comp lab is open she wan upload song. den we went to tp lib mac and study den ty came and we study together. was slacking until ty came and finish her food. and i did 2 hist essay today. booo. den came home for dinner.

watched superstar. why do people wan to go on tv and act like clowns when dey cannot even sing? where has their pride gone to? izzit worth it for a show to put down urself till like that. if u noe u cant sing u jolly well dun participate in this kind of show to let pple luff at. seeing u all like that i dunno wad my reaction shud be to luff or to cry. how old are u all le. still do such throw face stuff. for example sumone whu dun look like ou xuan at all say she looks like ou xuan. the other looks like ruhua like totalleh. but. YA? why go tv and insult urself? ruhua esp. u go on national tv and u go and do all the rubbish. i feel so hurt for u. do u enjoy being luff at? i bet u go home and cry each time u finish doing the show. or are u just like me happy outside sad deep inside. where nobody willl see u cry? or do u cry when nobody's around? like wad i will do? i dunno. dun u feel painful when everybody shuns u?

and i came online. now i feel so hurt. i dun wanna cry tonite de. i really dun. and i tot i'd cry only because of him. yet now. another problem. wad is trust? trust is thrash. i will nv trust anybdoy anymore. everybody is freaking liars. even me myself. so why shud anyone ever trust me? if everybody wud trust everybody. den the world is so wonderful. but if everybody trust everybody, the police will haf nth to do, the prison wardens will haf nth to do. and the world will nv be perfect. for not even someone can be perfect. not even ~~god is perfect.~~ sighs. cry i shud. cry it all out. BUT why shud i cry over him. it was such an unexpected situation. i din expect the tears to drop so naturally. a blink of the eye the flow of the tears. wadeva.

boring day!

2005-06-07T21:52:00.000+08:00

it's just another boring day where by i slept till 11am like that. and remedial is like from 8-10? so i like just slept through remedial without even noticing im like so pig? PIG <-- pig colour leh!. lol.nvm nothing's wrong with being pig? lol wheeee. xinwen ask me go out. but damn lazy to go out la. very very lazy and not feeling good either. so after much persuasion. ~~VERY LONG~~ but i still din go out. so spend da whole day rotting again. damnn. staying at home is a waste of time. at least i go out can do sumtign constructive like homework. i just cannot do homework at home i dunno why leh. wadeva la.i only went out because my mum force me go buy dinner for her. geeee. see nv go out means nothing to blog. actually got ting. but suan le.

I DO NOT WANT TO BLOG ABOUT IT ANYMORE.u no nid come here anymore le.

reallytoomuchformetosayanyting.

erms wad the?

2005-06-06T23:59:00.000+08:00

well. today had geog remedial. 8-10.cabbed to sch.lazy to walk sia.must ask mama pay me back top up farecard money if not bo lui.hehes.okie got abit of lui now. $$.30bucks wors.emergency usage geee.supposed to meet xinwen wif wanru after geog rememdial. but after geog remedial wanru pangseh-ed AGAIN! she going to eat wif joleen they all. hahaa. the last time was ytd. supposed to send xiaobai they all off to thailand today de. mornign flight.damn early one las. actually my daddy sending me. but den he suddenly cannot make it. so he ask me take cab. den wanru was saying plus the surcharge all v ex. AND THE NEXT MSG was sumting cropped up at home cannot make it.>.< color="#c0c0c0">also SORRRRY LA!!! so after remedial i went to study wif emm clara huii and val. den listen study and do finish physics that ws. hehee. bahhh. can cross out another one. den whole day msging gege. den i wenta meet him for dinner. supposed to he treat de los. but i was late. very late. SORRRY TOO!!! x) hmmms.den i say no nid treat. i was following him for quite long den he realised i was at the back hehe. lalala. den i decided to ask wanru to come. so we waited for her at pastamania. and in the end the kind gege decided to treat us all eat. bill around $29 wors. but he keep using the receipt to "ya" us.geee >.< WELCOME TO PASTAMANIA! CAN I TAKE YOUR ORDER?" or sumting like tt de la. so funnny rite. bleah. den after tt weikwong and yy called me. ask me go watch movie was tinking why so weird. couple ask me go be lightbulb. but i just din expect. arhh nvm. ~~WEIKWONG I DUN WAN TRUST U LE BAHHHHHHHHHHH~~! so mean de. u broke ur promise. hmmm. den went town wif gege wanru to meet keith xinwen terry and kevin(he left quite early) deciding wad show to waTch.btu quite late leh. so in the end nv watch. after a lot of la la che che. gee! so we walked to some coffeeshop. quite famous my uncle bring me there b4. behind somerset de. to eat kaya bread and nasilemak keith dey all hungry we had our DINNER! x) den xinwen left. we went to take train. and i reaCh home only to receive a shock. no i HAVEN reach home. lol. bah i shall not elaborate.

imreallySORRY.dun do wad u did today again. it's not worth it. at least not for me. find another gal. i dun deserve u. ~~u are scarying me. u~~ ~~are freaking me out~~. i din wan to accept anyting from u. i dun wan to be another false hope giver. u and ow are two different people. two differnt problems. it's just different. geddit? u are not him. u'll nv be. even if u did try to do something. but. nothing will change the fact. dun tear for me. im not worth your tears. keep it for the gal u love. love hurts. so dun ever fall in love. HAHA. it'll hurt u alot. it's a warning! lol. dun infatuate also. very bad de. hahaha. IM A FEMALE JERK!

boring day ^^

2005-06-05T23:33:00.000+08:00

okiee. today is a boring day. i woke up at ten plus and slacked until now. computer i tink on for whole day liaos. going to explode liao! did not much hw. a few englihs questions gee. tml got geog remedial super sian-ed 8-10!!!!!!!!!!! grrr.

being the kind me. tml ive decided to send the cedarians going to thailand off. so i'll be at airport arnd 6.30 am? den rite. my dad send me there. and he's gonna wait for me and send me to sch wheeee x)) lalala! lol. and sun bian bring my books home.

ya super sianed nothing to do. just chatting online.

some fren of my fren say cedar is rich and we are slutty and bitchy because we are rich like wad the. in the end. after toking to tt guy. HE DUN EVEN NOE CEDAR LA. gee. nv heard of anyhow tok cock. lalaa bleah.

received a certaine mail. i dunno how to react to it. then it was a certain message that left me confused. i really dunno wad to tell u. i know everyting is so abrupt. i know you cant take it. i know you've been hurt more than ever. i know everything and how you feel. i know sorry has no cure. i just dunno how to face u. u wanted to know why am i doing this to you but the problem is i dun even know why am i doing all these ?so many things to write but certainly so little time to express it all out. i dunno how you found your way to here. to read the truth. im sorry i lied. im sorry everyting has to happen this way. maybe i gave you false hope. dun tink too much. cheer up x))

to clara (:

2005-06-05T15:07:00.000+08:00

this post is specially dedicated to CLARA YEE for helping me tink of my blog url x)) thanks loads!

THANKYOUTHANKYOU.

THANKYOUTHANKYOU

THANKYOUTHANKYO.

THANKYOUTHANKYOU

THANKYOUTHANKYO.

THANKYOUTHANKYOU

okie that was meant to be a heart!

haha bleahs. wadeva x)

;; s a k a e s u s h i

2005-06-04T23:34:00.000+08:00

i slept for around 12 hours x) woke up around 1 like that. replenish my energy because whole week i sleep so late and wake up so early wheeee. so shuang. but the more i sleep the more lethargic i feeeel! geeee! wake up eat cup nooodles online read magazine do homework homework homework homework. arrhh! i fell back aslp hehe. den my mum woke me up. she treat me go eat sakae sushi. dunno why so good mood arh. dad's gone to a dinner. bro's out for dinner wif frens. so the 3 females are left alone to eat ourselves. LOL. today's a boring day but tml will be even more. STUDY HOMEWORK STUDY HOMEWORK. miss leongs says 64 hours worth of homework.. for the whole holiday? i tink it's more than that.
let's see arh

1. english - (a) sum summary worksheet
(b) cedar prelim paper 2004
2. chinese - (a) assessment book practice
~~3. a maths - (a) 4 other school paper [sji,stgabs and other i cant remember is wad]~~
~~4. e maths - (a) 4 maths practices~~
5. physics - (a) series 6 [means tys all the pages which ends wif 6 must do all the q]
~~(b) a worksheet which states which other tys questions we must do~~
6. chemistry - (a) 4 other school chemistry prelim papers
7. history - (a) 6 structured essays to do
(b) source based

hmmms tink not all the subject haf hw? tink again. we must complete all the MYE corrections?
hmmms and tt's not all.
u seee arh. june holidays is for us to study and piang and chiong for o level rite? with remedials on first second and fourth week of the holidays we where got enuff time to study. but going back to sch is fun. BUT everyday 8 am very tired leh! lol. conclusion: no time! and wad 5 day week ting. RUBBSIH LOS. total crap wheee.
apparently i only completed maths. IM JUST BIASED TOWARDS MATHS LA. it rocks totally.

today is a peaceful day. no nothing. except only the other him la. ive been ignoring his sms-es and calls as well. i jsut din wan to answer or reply. i dun wanna him to be like the others. but. i dunno. he persevers he says he misses me he says im ignoring him. i dun wan him to be hooked to me to be so reliant on me. i want him to give up. to forget me. im sorry. i dun wan another person to be hurt again. bernice calls me a female jerk. but it's not my fault wad. it just aint. it's just me. im just like that. knowing too many pple has its pros and cons. if u wan sumting done quick or u nid sumting from tt certain sch or u nid help from sumone or u just nid sumbody to tok to to cry on to be there for u. there's so many to ask from to choose from. BUT. it also results in more problems. for example, somehwo the marists i noe seemed to noe every other marist that i noe. and. it's like so coincidental.and it's so weird how some of them can go out together. the combi is just weird la. HAHA. but. i dunno. too many pple too many probleems. gee. it'll all begin either from frenster, from sch based activities, from msn, from hp, from frens and results in me and trouble x)). i used to be close to this certain group of pple. den i kinda drag my fren in. now i drift apart from them. the memories are there. but i guess i cant hold on to all my frens at a time. my hands aint that long. ive only got 2 hands. it was such a pity i hafta sacrifice that frenship. or maybe it was just between me adn that few of them. the others are going along fine wif me. there's a quote that goes sumting like tt cant remember the exact one. " There are no permanent friends or enemies only permanent interests" it's like so true? lol. there are no forevers in this world. stop trying to kid urself. ~~friends forever. i love u forever~~. those are just lies. stop living in self-denial. get back to reality. it's just like no one can live forever u get it? pple who used to be enemies, rolling their eyes upon seeing each other criticising each other. BUT in the end dey become like good friends. how ironic can tt be. like super contradicting las. have been thinking about this for quite long. how the hell did i get to noe so m a n y pple? even i dunnno. lol.

actually got so many so many feelings and thoughts to share. but then again. i dunno how to phrase it. i dunno how to start. i dunno whcih to go first. maybe it'll be better if it's in my mind. nobody will want to noe anyway. it'll be better for me to keep it inside. this way i'll only be sad on the inside. happy on the outside. i happy everybdoy also will happy at least i tink so. nobody will care about wad i really type here. at least i tink u will not. lol.

on a lighter note....
lol. dey had their campfire tonite which means tml they will break camp. and i can tok to them again. PLAY wif them again x) hehes. and can tok to him again. i miss him so much these few days. LOL! bleahs * i changed my msn dp le* so u cannot scold me. LOL. okiee pple u all dun tink too much. this guy over here in topic is only a sec 2. and pple who noe me well will noe i dun gao jie di lianone LOl.

im still eating at this time. gee. wad? WATERMELONS. W A T E R M E L O N S. hehehehe rocks. it's red. it's juicy. muahaha.

________toopid**

2005-06-03T23:45:00.000+08:00

wah piang eh. turned out i deleted the most important part of the html away. NO WONDER my entry cannot appear ytd x)) how stupid can i be man. THANKS JIA WEN! I LURRVE YOU! WHAT WOULD I HAVE DONE WITHOUT YOU *MUACKS* shud i let many many pple know about this blog or the fewer the better?

i dunno wad song to put for the blog leh. this one los. wait till i have sudden craving for another song. ALL ABOUT U! but it's too noisy for my beautiful blog. CREDITS TO JIAWEN AGAIN! hehes.

well today had physics again supposedly 8-12. so long rite. good ol` kind miss thang gave up a break at arnd 10. den dismissed us at 11 plus. because we were getting restlesss and she was kinda not late in the syllabus. x)) wheee. love her man. den went to toa payoh mac and study!!! for arnd 6 hours. doing my maths holiday homework. a few questions more and i clear maths officially! wheeee. halfway we were hungry hmm. we left our stuff at mac and went to long john for lunch. haha. we were trying to hide the pens on the table beacuse each pen cost $3 and yunqian say wait pple steal. den say cedar windbreaker also. and 5 stacks of new foolscap and other worthless stuff. so we hid it all under the homework. how lame. ahhaa feliccia and pple came. muahaa den went library at 6 plus. anad studied until 9. muaha. IM A COOL NERD.

should i give me and yoo another chance? i do not know. im so tired of life. so tired of getting hurt. so tired of everything. i dunno whether to believe you again. i dunno where to put my trust. once and again. u hurt me badd. seven months gone just like that? i dun wana it to end just like that. im sad. do u noe? u dun. because u dunno about this blog. and im being super super sarcastic in my sms-es. trying to give up on this relationship and forget everything. will i be able to do it i wonder. i need time. to let my wounds heal. they cant open and close as and when dey like. it is painful. u talkked about memories. if this is to end i wan to end it beautifully. go away and dun spoil the wonderful dreams u created for me. should i give it another shot another try? BUT each time i try again each time i get hurt. how long more must this go on before u realise the importance of me. everytime u only cherish something after u lose it. it's not just me. let me cry once more in your arms once again. i nid that feeling that security. after this last, i promise nv to bother u again. will it be better for both of us? u said it was up to me to decide. is this relationship that insignificant? Stop saying it's up to me. The day you gave up on trying to get to me. by calls messages friendster or emails. the day u gave up on trying. did u tink it was up to me? the very day u gave up on me. u have already made the choice of leaving me. it wasnt up to me choose anyting. whether or not it was in a moment of anger. what's said is already said. i admit it mite be my fault that tings have to end up like that. because of HER. or me? am i just being insensitive. possessive perhaps. i din wan to talk to u because i dunno i tink i was angry u contacted her when u promised to stop. den u ask if we can still be friends. does it still matter? nothing ever mattered before u left. nothing. the pain inflicted by u on my heart by me on my hand is intolerable. i cannot take it anymore. my life will never be completed without u by my side. i miss you truly i want to hug u madly i lurrve yoo deeply. but nothing aint the same anymore. SORRY.

x)) haappiiee biirthdaay x))

2005-06-02T22:48:00.000+08:00

today is YUNQIAN's and ANDREW's birthday.

x)) haappiiee biirthdaay to yoo`` x))
x)) haappiiee biirthdaay to yoo`` x))
x)) haappiiee biirthdaay to yoo-uu`` x))
x)) haappiiee biirthdaay to yoo`` x))

had physics remedial from 8-10 in the comp lab. 10-12 chemistry in the thearette. miss chng must be feeling tired today or something. she started lesson only at 10.30. den she say dismiss at 11.30 she asked us if it was too early. IT WILL NEVER BE TOO EARLY LAS apparently. 4C pple are slackers man. SUPPPERR LAZY x)) wheeee

anyway after that went to eat seoul garden - to celebrate miss wu's 16th birthday. hahaa ate until everybody stomach's *booom* lol. VALERIE ATE LIKE wad five BOWLS OF ICE CREAM!
man tt's like alot la. den cannot walk. hahaha. after that we went home. wheee. and here doing my latest blog? hurhurs.

xinwen's in camp. awwww. so sad. dear's sad. honey's sad. everybody's sad. keith and pple too. bOOOO! so boring. time to study? i guess so. BLAAHH. madness.